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Phyl-Undhu
Phyl-Undhu
Appendix-1: Abstract Horror
Appendix-2: Exterminator
Notes
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Time-Spiral Press, 2014
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... even in the few seconds that had passed since his arrival at her
side, he had seen a patch of illumination go out, a swathe of lights –
a whole precinct or district – turn suddenly dark. The lights did not
return; there was a ribbon of blackness cutting across Spearpoint
that had previously been illuminated. And as he kept watching,
another ribbon appeared below that one – the lights flickering on and
off this time, as if some ancient, overstrained generator had just cut
out and then restarted, before losing the battle against the darkness.
It didn't end there, either. In seemingly disconnected parts of
Spearpoint, squares and rectangles of darkness appeared – not just
in Neon Heights but in the upper levels, taking out parts of Circuit
City and even the angel spaces. The squares and rectangles pushed
out fingers and filaments of blackness, joining disconnected areas,
squeezing the visible light into narrow, harried motes and margins,
as if the visible lights were people being herded into stifling pens by
armies of dark enforcers. – Alastair Reynolds, Terminal World
(p.101)
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The Certainties are those matters, only, which if not held true, make
of all holding true or false an insanity. … Of the Heavens, whether
there be such or not, nothing is known. We are compelled to concur
with the wisdom of the ancients, when they say of paradise ‘it is the
topic of fools’. … Of the 1023 Hells, we know, from adamant principle
and thus with perfect confidence, of their times, the order of their
times, and – descending from the order of their times – their
dominant qualities, of their superior and inferior gods, of their
connections and doors, and the angles of their doors, of their names
and the numbers of their names, to the ninth degree, of their seals
and sigils, of their torsions, of the cries they release and the cries
they hold, of their populations as to numbers, of their maze-types,
bonds, and hooks, of their weapons, of the tools of their weapons,
and the calls of their weapons, and also many other things. –
Tchukhzsca, the Certainties (prologue, i-iii)
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All so shed. – Unattributable.
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Phyl-Undhu
§00. Utter nullity. In the words of the ancient sages of ruined
Ashenzohn, it was the endlessness that ends in itself. Dark silence
beyond sleep and time, from whose oceanic immensities some
bedraggled speck of attention – pulled out, and turned – still dazed
at the precipitous lip, catches a glimmer, as if of some cryptic
emergence from eclipse. Then a sound, crushed, stifled, broken into
gasps. Something trying to scream …
§01. Does thirteen billion years really seem like such a long time to
you? It was too late for that question. She was no longer in the place
where it made sense. To forget was a shelter indistinguishable from
waking, on some paths, and manifestation of the outer gates had
already been accomplished with excessive harshness. Now the
rustle of a curtain, the tic, tic, tic of a wind-flustered twig on the
window pane, relieved her from those hideous cosmic durations,
which had pulverized all refuge until only raw exposure remained.
What had been worse were the hatches, nested inside each other,
as they scaled down out of the icy, intolerable void. Something that
was like a wind, but was not a wind, blasting, sucking, tugging
directly at the mind. She scarcely dared to hope that the world had
closed again, so quietly. She rummaged through the corners of each
though, suspiciously, searching for insidiously self-delusive designs.
“Madness is no escape,” she had told herself, or been told, advised,
by a voice that held the keys to indescribable …
“Nightmares?”
“No,” she mumbled the necessary lie, as her sleep had
before. Even in their recession, the cruel subtleties impressed her
still. The slow excruciation had masked itself cunningly, spinning a
second, inaccessible sleep-gate from the fabric of dreams, then a
third, perhaps more, each sealed with intricate puzzle-locks. Exact
recollection fractured among fake awakenings. She had thought, for
long ages, that the episodic impossibility of reaching beyond this
Matrioshka labyrinth was the whole of her life. Crossings beyond
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crossings. Now the palpable menace had dissipated. Only its husk
remained. Vague direness. What are you inside?
“Can’t sleep?”
“Sorry.” She shifted again. “Am I keeping you awake?”
“It’s OK honey.” Jack Turner’s voice had already shrugged
off its drowsiness like a dead snake skin. He re-angled a pillow to
prop himself up against the head-board. “Something in particular
that’s bugging you?”
Alison sat up next to him, her body stiff with tension. “Suzy
mainly, of course.” She paused momentarily, “… and I guess some
other stuff.” Bad dreams, thick with traps and false dawns, had been
recurrent recently – but she wasn’t referring to that.
“So you think this Suzy problem is serious?”
“Don’t you?” There was querulous edge to the response
that she had failed to entirely suppress. It wouldn’t be Jack who had
to deal with this, she thought grumpily. Still, he was asking. That was
good. She took his hand, squeezing it slightly.
“She seems OK to me …” he mumbled.
“Oh, Jesus Jack! The school has set up some kind of
exceptional meeting to discuss what’s ‘going on’ with her. Does that
sound ‘OK’ to you?”
“So, what is …?” He trailed off. Neither of them had yet
switched on a light. The darkness made their exchange seem
spectrally insubstantial, oneiric. “You know what honey, if we’re going
to talk this over properly – and you’re right, we should – it would be
better to get up for a while. If we stay here it’s just going to feel like
insomnia.” He was already swinging his legs out of bed, reaching for
his ridiculous tartan dressing gown. “A glass of wine would help me
focus.”
“Really?” She smiled, and began roughly mirroring his
actions. “Wine? Now? At two in the morning? When we’re both
working tomorrow?” It was meant to sound light, but it didn’t.
Moonlight painted black webs over her face.
She scanned the dimness for her favorite night-dress, an
over-sized tattered jumper that had once been maroon, but was now
an odd shade of bruised gray. The left elbow was completely gone,
but it was warm, the weight and scratchiness comforting. Locating
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the shadowy mound near the curtain, she hooked it towards her with
one foot, and pulled it on. To give up on sleep like this was a relief. It
was true.
§02. Jack had already fished a half-consumed bottle of Shiraz from
the fridge by the time she reached the kitchen. She sat at their large
time-scoured table and let him pour her a glass.
“I’m seeing Suzy’s teacher tomorrow, straight after work,”
she said. “There’s not much to discuss until then.”
“Do you know what it’s about?”
“‘Frightening her classmates.’ That’s all I’ve been told.”
“Frightening them?”
“That’s all I’ve been told,” she repeated, lengthening the
leash on her irritation.
“OK, OK …” He held up his hands defensively. “It’s just …”
“… absurd. Yes.” She sighed. “I’ve been dealing with this for
almost a week. By dinnertime tomorrow we’ll know what it’s all
about.”
“But it’s keeping you up?” he persisted.
“Oh, I don’t know Jack.” It was her turn to throw up her
hands, almost knocking her wine glass over. “It’s not a rational
thing.”
“She’ll be OK,” he mused vaguely, swirling his unconsumed
wine into a slow vortex, mind caught in the red swirl. “Although
actually, since we’re here, there is one Suzy-related matter that
concerns me, a little.”
“That stupid game,” she predicted.
He looked up, surprised. “Yes … that’s right.”
“Feels like it ate our daughter sometimes, doesn’t it?” A
ghostly smile.
They’d never spoken about it before, as far as he could
remember. Not even casually, in micro-fragments, or humorous
allusions. It was odd – perhaps slightly sinister, for this prominent
time-wedge, driven diagonally into their family, to have become so
entirely unmentionable.
“The thing that’s been bugging me is that we don’t know
anything about it. Driving home the other night, I tried to calculate
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how much time she’s spent in there. A thousand hours? It can’t be
less than that. It’s not that I want to go down the ‘young people
today!’ road …”
“… but we know nothing at all about their lives.” She was
sure this completion of his sentence wouldn’t count as an
interruption. He’d let it hang half-way, long enough to offer an
invitation. The pseudo-telepathy was a little marital solidarity on the
cheap. They probably needed that right now. There was a roughness
rolling in from somewhere. It was going to be hard. She shivered
slightly.
He was tilted towards her attentively, and noticed. “Cold?”
“Metaphysically cold.” She smiled weakly, but genuinely, to
take the edge off the verbal chill. “You know that old TV thing:
Winter’s coming.”
“Now you’re being melodramatic,” although he didn’t really
think so. “It won’t seem like anything much, looking back.”
§03. It was already winter, and the darkness was slow to ebb.
Through the unveiled kitchen window they could see across the
street, which was patchily illuminated by sparse suburban street
lighting, cold bluish neon feeding shadows. A random speckling of
warmer night lights dotted the houses opposite. Roofs were dusted
with early snow, catching the luminosity of Earth’s dead satellite,
which hung, huge and low, in a purple-black sky. Hunter’s moon,
Jack thought, without great confidence. It was a term he knew only
from fictions. Horror stories.
“And how about the ‘other stuff’?” he asked, after a while.
So, he’d heard, and remembered. She was impressed.
“Work oddness. I’m not sure if it’s anything, really …” She no longer
thought she wanted to return there.
“If it’s keeping you awake, it has to be something …”
There was no escaping it. Perhaps it would be good to talk
it over, although that now seemed unlikely. “There’s a case … it’s
getting to me somehow. I don’t know why. At least, I don’t think I
know.” Which wasn’t true, or even a sustainable lie.
“An especially creepy cult?”
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“No, nothing like that. I mean, sure, it’s creepy, in its own
way …”
“And that way would be?”
“It’s almost too – how should I put it? – too calm, too rational
… too civilized … I’m sorry Jack, this is stupid, isn’t it?”
He ignored the evasive self-deprecation. “So what’s the
belief-system?”
“Technically it’s a Makharov Type-IX cosmo-deist inversion
– fatalistic, pessimistic, apocalyptic … If I were a collector, this would
be my prize specimen. It’s near-perfect. Except …”
“… they’re too nice.” He’d been well-primed. That was
exactly what it was – at least part of it.
She released an odd bubble of laughter, then shook her
head, as if to clear it. “No coercion, no isolation, no real economic
exaction, sure there’s charismatic leadership but – here’s the
weirdest part – I met her.”
“The leader?”
“Yes, in a coffee shop of all things. Stranger still, it was my
client who insisted on it, introduced us. It was ethically … I didn’t
know what to think. I still don’t. She was charming, polite, clearly
highly-intelligent. My client obviously likes and respects her. It’s
nuts.”
“So what’s the problem?”
“He’s scared.”
“But I thought …”
“No, not of her, or the group. He’s scared of the philosophy,
of his own beliefs. There’s nothing to stop him walking away, but he
can’t walk away from himself. He wants not to have thought certain
things.”
“Can you help with that?” he asked, skeptically.
Smart Jack, she thought, you get it. She shrugged. “I’ve
tried to explain what the therapy can do, and what it can’t, that the
only difficulties we’re able to deal with are those of dependency. He
even seems to understand it. If there was someone else he could
turn to, he probably would. But where does he go? A priest of some
kind would be the obvious answer, but the only sense in which he’s
religious is this one, and it’s the source of the problem. He can’t
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philosophize his way out – that’s why he came to me in the first
place.” She scowled in frustration. “You’d be at least as useful to him
as I am, more I’d guess – your interests are closer to the topic.”
“What is the topic?”
“I’m finding it hard to help him,” she said obliquely. “No, it’s
worse than that. I dig him deeper into it.”
“Into what?” It took a struggle to keep the frustration out of
his voice.
“‘The End is a Thing, and an Intelligence,’ that’s what they
say. ‘And we can converse with it’.”
“This … ‘thing’ has a name?”
The color drained from her face, suddenly.
“Allie?” He reached across the table to grasp her hand. It
was clammy, abnormally cold. “Allie, what the hell is it?”
She jolted back, as if from somewhere else. The ghastly
parody of a smile struggled onto her lips. “It’s nothing. I’m sure it’s
nothing. Really.”
“For Christ’s sake Allie, you’re scaring me to death. What is
it?”
“The name … Oh Jack, I know it sounds stupid, but I’m
having a really bad time with the name.”
“This is about Suzy too, somehow, isn’t it?” He had no idea
how he knew.
She nodded, minutely, brokenly. “Don’t laugh Jack, but the
connection is Suzy’s ridiculous ‘invisible friend’.”
“‘Phil?’” he recalled immediately. It was a phase that had
lasted longer than the time since its end.
“Yes, it started with that hideous stuffed octopus,
remember? Bob and Sally bought it for her – which I’ll never forgive
them for – and she refused to let us throw it out, even after it had
disintegrated into shreds. It got absolutely disgusting, and then when
I put it in the washing machine it clogged up the filter …” She paused
unnaturally, frozen, as if a wave of entrancement had passed
through her, and then resumed, without any sign she had noticed the
interruption. “… those gray-green threads of some indescribable
material. Then Suzy would be mad. ‘Why was I trying to ruin her
cottopos? What did I have against Phil?’ You remember?”
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“Sure. It went on for years.”
“And then, when we finally got the filthy …” (zone out) “…
cottopos into the trash, it was still ‘I don’t believe you, Phil told me
that’s nonsense. Phil knows much more about that than you do. Phil
tells me different. Phil tells me secrets …’” Something had happened
to her voice that chilled him to the bone marrow.
“Yes.”
“Why did she call him ‘Phil’?” Her gaze was black ice.
“I don’t …”
“Why? Why that name? It came out of nowhere, didn’t it?”
He struggled through mental fog towards some clear
recollection. Nothing came. “It was just a random thing I guess.”
“‘Random’.”
“What’s this about, Allie? I’m not understanding at all what
this is about.”
“Maybe it’s nothing.”
“I think we’re way beyond that point.”
She laid her hands flat on the table, took several deep
breaths, started over. “Cult extraction therapy is a slow spiral inwards
towards the central beliefs.” Her voice had slowed too, stripped of
inflection, as if she was reading from a manual. It was a distancing
tactic. This was how she put difficult material in order. He
remembered her sounding this way, as she enumerated the options
available to them, when Suzy had broken her ankle on the slopes of
Mount Lovell, six hours hiking distance from civilization. It had been
OK that time, in the end. “It’s important not to start with matters of
doctrine, or get to them too quickly. The cult experience has to be
cognitively neutralized. You start with the social dynamics, then the
rituals. The beliefs come last. So it wasn’t until we were deep into the
process that I first heard it.”
“It being …?”
“The name. Suzy’s ‘invisible friend’ name. The intonation
was identical, like an old recording being played back, just for me.
Jack, it was horrible. It sounded the same – exactly the same – but I
heard it differently, as if this time I was hearing what it truly said,
what it was. I’ve never been so …” Inertia would have led her to say
‘scared’, but she stopped, because that wasn’t it. It had been much
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closer to grief, although it wasn’t that either. It had been the
impossibility of continuing to live, suddenly understood, but in a way
that was not at all personal. Everything was impossible – that’s what
it meant. Everything was over. There was a revolution, slow and
implacable, like the wheeling of the galaxies, in which even the
incandescence of the stars was a concentration of coldness. “Icy
necessity,” she murmured, reluctantly remembering. “It was the
name of fate. This isn’t making any sense, is it?” Her eyes were
clogged with emptiness. Where reflection should have been, there
was only the soul-scouring vacuity of some abandoned, and then
long-desolated hell.
§04. Some nights seem not to end, except inside themselves. They
are filled with strange turns, leading to unwanted doors. Sleep is
supposed to protect us from them.
Jack glanced at his watch, which wasn’t there. Panicked
now, by an obscurity far beyond his tolerance, he rushed into an
imbecile buffoonery. The humiliation was pitched up into agony, even
as it rolled out, but he was unable to stop himself: “Phil? Their
ominous cosmic thing is called ‘Phil’? You mean like ‘Philip the
Magnificent, Destroyer of Worlds’?”
Rising up, immediately behind the infantile giggle that then
sought to emerge, was a dilating bubble of hysteria without obvious
conclusion. Theories of cosmic expansion modeled it,
mathematically. A dilation not in, but of space. Inflationary
catastrophe so extreme it can be mistaken for the beginning of the
universe. He still remembered, with sharp clarity, the moment – as a
15-year-old – when he had first truly understood that, grasped what it
meant, what it said that space was, right here. Cosmology had
possessed him then. Now he locked the virtual explosion behind a
rigid, broken grin.
Alison’s expression was unforgiving. “No. I don’t mean
anything like that. At all,” she said stonily.
Chastened, he swallowed the last of his wine, poured some
more. This moment of idiocy would haunt him for the rest of his life,
he realized sourly. The need for psychological insulation was now an
explicit, urgent demand. “So it’s another ‘Phil’.”
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Her gaze softened, to become strangely pitying, as her
voice dropped almost to a whisper. “You’re still thinking it all upside
down.”
He had begun to see something that he didn’t want to see,
to a terrifying level of resolution. It was still no more than the shadow
of a thought, but its contours were acutely defined. Upside down,
yes. There was a cognitive rotation, he could sense it, precisely, like
the dial on a safe. If twisted around, it would free the thought to
come forth, from out of the dark, and it would bring the dark with it. It
would unquestionably be too much to bear. She has to carry this for
now, he thought, or they would both be finished. At the lucid
acknowledgement of this despicable cowardice, self-loathing
blossomed like a tropical flower, vivid in its captivating accusation.
Still, it had to be her. It simply had to. She had passed already over
the threshold. That was unmistakable. There would be no point in
him joining her there – not yet. If he did, there would be nothing
further he could do. His mind writhed in a hasty search for some
more ego-compatible rationalization. That was good. The futile
puzzle was a distraction. It was something else. Perhaps she even
understood that she couldn’t let him know.
“So what do you think it means?” he pretended to ask.
“Don’t ask me that!” It wasn’t quite a shriek, but something
was welling up that wanted to be one. If there could be nothing but
noise, without sense, it would help. She wasn’t prepared to drown
alone, sinking endlessly into some ocean trench of truth, to spare a
rescuer who would never arrive in time, for anyone. Instead, she
clung to his disintegrating raft of evasion, hands gripping the side of
the table, veins and tendons outlined like hieroglyphics of stress.
“You don’t get to hog the shelter of self-deception all to
yourself, goddammit!”
He forgot, sometimes, that she was a psychologist by
training and inclination.
They stared at each other, more distanced than they had
ever been, and yet, simultaneously, complicit in a deliberate –
desperate – unknowing. The congealing lie, nestled between them,
was scarcely less real than a second child.
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§05. The client had understood. That was a discovery beyond all
plausible uncertainty now. Wherever they were being drawn, it was a
place that he had been – from which he could not exit. He had
reached out to Alison in a desperate search for untruth. She had
been useless to him, and merely professional, not knowing enough
to be serious. Now, it had come to this.
He had called it ‘TotAL’ and conversationally, of course,
simply ‘Total’ – the Temple of the Absolute Limitation – it had other
names, but that was the one they had used during counselling. This
compact semiotic bundle was packed with occult clues, which she
could have followed if doctrine and cultural genealogy had been the
subject of interest, but they weren’t. She wasn’t trying to be serious
about this strange little cult, but rather the opposite, for what had
seemed perfectly good reasons. It had been all-too successful at
being taken seriously, certainly as far as her client was concerned, or
so it had seemed to her then. What had been needed, then, was
something else.
“As in ‘totalitarian?’” she had asked him. It had been
intended as a light joke, and not all as a manipulative, psycho-social
prompt. That had been clear from her tone – she’d thoughtlessly
assumed – but he had reacted with awkward distress. She felt bad
about it at once. Before he had even finished stammering a denial
she hushed him with an apology. Looking back, that clumsy jest
came to seem like a moment of disastrous breakage.
The key to the therapy, in her experience, had always been
bound to humor. There was a critical point of rupture, at which the
client was induced to laugh at the cult’s mental chains. As the bonds
of belief came to seem ridiculous, they fell away. That was the way
out. It was a reliable route – the only one she knew – but on this
occasion it had been lost recoverably, sacrificed to a failed witticism.
The comedy was over. Somewhere off-stage, TotAL thickened,
condensed in vindication. The therapeutic process was still
underway, as a vacant formality, but it was limping nowhere.
For the client (we can call him ‘Simon’, though this was not
– of course – his real name) it was as if the final door had been
slammed shut. He slumped back in his chair, struggling to dull the
barbs of reproach, which were in any case rendered irrelevant by the
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ceremony of unconditional surrender, to the oppression of his own
intelligence. No assistance would ever come. How could he ever
have imagined it might?
“The Temple asks nothing of me,” he said softly. “It told me
something, when I asked it to. That’s all.”
“It told you communication with the end of the universe was
possible?”
“That sounds absurd – because it’s badly formulated.”
“So, formulate it better.” This was no longer extraction
therapy, or anything like it. This was contagion.
“We exist within a stream of signs – a torrent. Information
flows through us, in overwhelming abundance, as a deluge. It is
screened, sieved, filtered, and edited, trimmed, narrativized,
delegated to mental sub-systems, dumped, so as not to drown us.
Yet, if we can calm ourselves enough to think, it is clear that this
flood of signal can have only one possible source: reality.”
“Reality?”
“So what is reality? That’s the question, yes? Don’t you
see? It’s telling you. It’s The Flood. It’s total revelation. Every
second, it pours in, through hundreds – thousands – of channels.
‘Don’t ask for a sign’ – I’m quoting Phyllis now. Perhaps I have been
for a while. ‘You have a billion signs a minute that you don’t want.
You’re already in The Flood.’”
“Phyllis,” Alison muttered, with an irrepressible hint of
bitterness. “Of course.”
“You’ve read Ovid?”
Alison strained to remember, to catch the reference.
Nothing came.
“The abandoned princess. ‘I gave many gifts, many that I
was given …’ but you, false Demophon, fled. You blocked it out,
forgot, shielded yourself with distance. You left me.”
“You’re confusing me.”
“Yes, it’s too much. I’m sorry.” He closed his eyes, resigned.
“You didn’t ask for this.”
§06. Alison Turner disliked Clifford Bagley within seconds of meeting
him. It was not his fault, she recognized. Unfortunately, his manner
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recalled someone else, someone for whom she had felt intense
aversion, and had in fact quite obsessively hated. The personal
characteristics in question were not intrinsically loathsome (this
admission took some psychological effort). They were no worse than
neutral, although not less than pitiable. Signs of a barely-controlled
anguish. A neurotic agitation of the hands. A darting, shiftiness of
expression. A chronic apologetic cringe that veiled – like orbital dust
– a hidden core of unfathomable, gravity-locked rage. It was an
absolute defeatedness, perversely triumphant, and held at bay by
some tortured parody of normality – as a kind of undeath. They had
called … the previous man ‘Zombie’. A nervous adolescent giggle
threatened to revive at the thought. Poor Mr. Bagley was probably a
‘Zombie’ too. It bonded the two men across time and space, with the
absolute necessity due some shared Platonic essence.
The other man, whose name still escaped her – had also
been a teacher – and the man she had most detested during the
entire course of her life to date. This was not based upon anything
specific that he had done. It was a response to his overall attitude,
which had been directed – she felt at the time – towards her absolute
psychological annihilation. There was a way he had of speaking to
her, seemingly without the slightest hint of deliberate malignancy,
which reduced her immediately to nothing. That, at least, was the
story she had told herself throughout two decades of adult life, but
now – for no reason she could quickly identify – she felt this narrative
slipping. There had been something else. Something more
intrinsically obscure. Perhaps something much worse.
None of this need have been relevant, were it not for the fact
that civil interaction with Mr. Bagley was going to be important. He
was Suzy’s class teacher, and quite probably a perfectly
unobjectionable individual. The topic of discussion, however, was
going to be fraught with tension. Bagley’s mysterious inner unity with
his vile precursor would be a further hurdle to be cleared.
Yet it began well. He removed his smart watch and placed it
carefully in the desk drawer. The action was a little fussy, but it was
undoubtedly considerate. Alison wondered vaguely whether he was
following an institutional procedure, or a private one. In either case,
she appreciated it.
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In her own work, it was even more important to project
focus. She had no watch at all, but only a micro-tablet. It was flexible
enough to run her life through, yet easily stowed in her shoulder-bag.
Susie would roll her eyes at the archaism, on occasions …
“… sorry, you were saying?” Focus. Could he have said
that? No, that was from her own chain of thinking. But he had said
something, hadn’t he?
“Are you alright Ms. Turner?” His concern was
understandable. The dark rings under her eyes had to be brutal.
“I’m not at all sure what this is about,” she stated flatly,
determined to keep the defensiveness from her voice. “This is an
unusual meeting, isn’t it?”
“Yes. Yes it is,” he concurred, over-eagerly. “It’s about
Susan, of course.” He had picked up a pencil, and was twisting it
awkwardly between his fingers. He was not enjoying this. “It’s that,
well – she’s upsetting the other children,” he blurted out. “I’m hoping
you can help me understand why.”
For a few seconds Alison was actually stunned. She was
surprised and then – because her surprise made no real sense –
thrown into confusion by her own unpreparedness. She had relapsed
somehow. What had she been expecting, after all? Wasn’t it exactly
this? Worse than this? She could no longer remember. “Upsetting?”
she managed finally. “Upsetting them how?”
“It’s actually quite complicated,” Bagley replied, quickly,
assertion and apology messily tangled in his tone. “If it wasn’t, we
could have perhaps done this over the phone.” His face underwent a
subtle convulsion, as it lurched towards a smile and then – after
urgent consideration – retreated back towards sympathetic gravitas.
“She’s only eleven.” It was pointless, clumsy fencing. As if
she had some use for time.
“To be blunt, that is exactly the point. Eleven-year-old kids
don’t talk about these type of things – not in my experience, at least.”
“What ‘type of things’? I’m sorry, but this is all in code. I
really have no idea what you’re talking about.”
He ran his hands through his thinning hair and sighed.
“Actually, I’m not really sure. I’ve tried to get Susan to explain her
ideas to me, many times now, but they can be hard to follow. She’s
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frighteningly bright,” he winced noticeably at the adjective. “Her mind
is fast and – I’d say – perhaps, daring, venturing into areas few want
to follow, or can follow. What little I understand, it mostly comes from
her classmates, and they’re usually confused, often upset.
Sometimes very upset.” Without warning, he changed tack. “I have
to ask: Do you talk about religion much at home? I know that your
work …”
She interrupted rudely, her fury barely contained. “My work
has nothing to do with it!” Then, with a forced, brittle calm: “I’m very
careful to insulate Susan from my work. I’d never dream of
mentioning my cases to her. She’s a child – and I do understand
what that means. My case files never enter the house. My computer
is securely locked. Nothing I come across at work has anything to do
with this. Nothing.”
“But she knows what you do?”
“Why are you asking this?”
Her naked hostility had driven him even further into cryptic
allusion. “Some of the – ah – themes of her thinking, they’re – how
can I put this? – most unlikely to have reached her any other way.
Your daughter has some very complicated, very unusual ideas of a
religious nature. We had to suspect …”
“I think I know where she got these ‘ideas’,” Alison said
quietly, defeated by a flash of insight. The answer to this horrible
riddle loomed into view, clad in the unmistakable livery of parental
neglect. Guilt had now crystallized and become unprojectable.
“She’s very deeply involved in a game.”
“A game …” Bagley ruminated aloud, relieved by the ebb of
tension, and struggling to convince himself of the new storyline – but
it was impossible. “It’s an – um – interesting suggestion.” Then, with
evident reluctance: “The trouble is, the system of belief we’re talking
about seems to be far too sophisticated for that.”
“You still haven’t told me very much,” Alison replied meekly,
all fight gone.
“‘Everything starts from the end.’”
“I beg your pardon.” The words had escaped too soon. The
last thing she wanted was an explanation, but Bagley was already
providing one.
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“It’s something Suzy said. Not to me directly, but to the other
children. Often, it seems. And there was a poem she wrote, with that
title, for Mr. Foster, her English teacher. It wouldn’t have been a
problem, of course, not at all, if it wasn’t part of something more.
Something she was able to communicate to her classmates with –
um – consequences.”
He’s scared too, Alison thought, to block out a wave of other
thoughts, which could be made to wait. There were too many
connections to cope with now. They would have to be shelved, dealt
with later, somewhere else. Jack would have to share this.
“There was an attempted suicide,” Bagley continued,
cheeks reddening, eyes wandering desperately. He couldn’t look at
her.
“Christ!”
“The child survived,” he added quickly, and unnecessarily.
“No lasting physical damage, but I’m sure you understand. The
parents are incensed. Legal action has been threatened. It’s not the
sort of thing the school can simply overlook. …”
Her mind recoiled from situation, stumbling backwards into
the hideous other, Bagley’s prototype – what had been his name?
The question gnawed at her distractingly. She had always known it
(surely?), and then – suddenly – it was there: Filkin. George Filkin
(but the forename added nothing).
“Are you feeling alright Mrs. Turner?”
“I’m so sorry, but I feel sick,” she said, stinging pin-pricks
swirling across her temples like particles of ice. “Is there a
bathroom?” He pointed, and she ran, hand cupped over her mouth,
down the corridor to the pink and blue gender signage. She skidded
inside, reaching the bowl just in time. It smelt of disinfectant
primarily, then of children, before anything worse. She vomited
everything out in three increasingly-painful spasms. The cool of the
porcelain against her cheek offered an iota of compensatory bliss.
Consciousness receded into dot pattern and a continuous whine,
then slithered back, clogged with self-disgust. Now he’ll think I’m on
drugs, she thought miserably.
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§07. So, the game was on. They waited until Suzy disappeared
upstairs to bed, then squatted down together beside the terminal.
The neat set of little matt black boxes, leads, and attachments was
such a familiar feature of the room that it had long edited itself out of
attention, but they noticed it now. It was an unintelligible alien
incursion (and a door).
“There’s some material I printed off the Web,” Alison said.
“It’s kind of what you’d expect, except – when you dig a little deeper
– it’s not.”
She extracted a thick sheaf of A4 pages from her bag. The
archaic substantiality was comforting, in its determinacy and finitude.
Some passages had been marked up in red ball-point pen.
“The word that comes up a lot is ‘creative’,” she continued.
“After a while, I began to wonder what that really meant. It’s
complicated – and not only for the obvious reasons.”
“Maybe we should start with ‘the obvious reasons’,” said
Jack, uncertainly.
“There’s no time. Actually, I don’t think there’s time for any
of this. We just need to hack in there and find out what’s going on.”
“Hack in?” His doubts had redoubled. “That might not be
easy.”
“I broke into her watch,” Alison said, pride and shame
reciprocally neutralized.
“You did?”
“I watched her needling the password in, and could see it
was a nine-letter code. Eventually I found it, written down in a
notebook, badly hidden in a paragraph of scrambled text.
‘Phylsword’.”
“What?”
She wrote it down for him.
“Phyl sword?”
“I’d thought ‘Phyl’s word’, but who knows?”
“And in the phone, find anything?” He tried to keep the tone
non-judgmental.
“No. Nothing,” she admitted. “Not even sure what I was
looking for. Something to do with the damn game. Keys.”
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He activated the console. It took only a second to power-up.
“We’ll need a username and a password. Two nine-figure codes this
time, by the look of it.” He was pretending to think it was possible, for
no real reason, but the act was evidently unconvincing.
“You don’t believe we can do this, do you?” Weariness
outweighed accusation.
“Eighteen bytes of security isn’t a joke.”
“Maybe she uses ‘Phyl’s word’ again?”
“Then it’s just 72 bits. You know that story about grains of
rice and a chessboard?”
She ignored the reference. “‘Suzy turns.’”
He shrugged, tried it. “‘Username and password do not
match.’ This isn’t the way, Allie. There are over one hundred trillion
combinations – and that’s just the alphanumerics. We don’t have a
serious method for shrinking the search space. Suzy’s old enough,
and smart enough, to keep secrets from us. Three fails in a row, and
I expect it to lock us out, while flagging an attempted intrusion. We’re
wasting our time.”
The message got through, then, and Alison doubled-back.
“The chessboard thing …” she mumbled. “Yes, I get it. Suzy’s brain
has escaped. Years ago, actually. So, what’s the next move?”
“Suzy opens it up for us, what else could it be?”
“You think she would?”
“Better than one-in-a-trillion chance, and we’re still ahead.”
It was nearly midnight. Steps, coming down the stairs.
Guiltily, they re-positioned themselves, away from the machine. Suzy
opened the door.
“What on earth are you doing up young lady?” Alison asked,
activating a deeply-grooved formula.
“Weird dream,” Suzy replied, her voice slurred with
tiredness. “I wanted a drink of milk.” It wasn’t clear whether she was
even awake.
As Alison steered their daughter into the kitchen, Jack lay
back on the rug, closing his eyes. Walls of closed code spooled
down across self-stimulating retinas, in random flurries. Winter was
whispering outside.
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§08. There wasn’t much milk in the fridge. Order had drifted. Alison
estimated the contents of the carton dubiously. Maybe somebody
could re-stock before breakfast in the morning. She poured what
there was into a glass, and handed it to Suzy.
“This dream?”
“It wasn’t a nightmare.”
“Really?” Alison countered skeptically, recalling her own
recent lies. She noticed her daughter’s thin pajamas, and bare feet.
“You must be freezing.” Jack had left one of his heavy winter jumpers
dangling messily over the back of a chair, thoughtlessly abandoned,
an arm inside out. “Here, put this on.” She should have been rushing
Suzy back to bed, but there were things that she wanted to know.
“It was more of a puzzle,” Suzy volunteered. “Umm, what’s
the word – abstract. There was a shape, but it didn’t make sense, as
if it didn’t fit into space, and it had a direction, a tilt, I don’t know how.
You were in it, too, and Dad, trying to work something out. There
were so many signs, buried inside each other. It raced my brain too
fast, and I woke up.”
“OK honey.” She couldn’t help hoping for more.
Suzy finished her milk and started to get up, then sat down
again. “Something’s going to happen, isn’t it?”
“Is it?” Alison had already switched. “I don’t know,
something’s always happening.” She didn’t want this conversation
anymore. “It’s really late. You’ve got school tomorrow.”
“You know the weirdest part of the dream, Mom?”
Of course she didn’t. (Please let that be true.) She shook
her head, but the negations were tripping over each other, getting
confused.
“There was a stage, close to the end, that somehow wasn’t
my dream at all. It got tangled up with this house, or another, like it in
a way, but not quite, with corridors, and halls, and connections. I
remember thinking, I’ve wandered into Mom and Dad’s room. Even
there, in the dream, I knew what it was saying. I’d taken some
strange turnings, in the dark, and crossed into a dream you were
supposed to be having. Not that it was yours, either, not really. It was
its own place. I thought Dad’s good at geometry, he’ll be able to
explain it, but you’d been there more, somehow, so you’d be
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particularly familiar. Then I was awake, without noticing, and felt
thirsty. It wasn’t really scary, but it was odd.”
“Honestly Suzy, you’re the most peculiar little person
sometimes.” She didn’t know whether to laugh, weep, or shudder.
She looked at her watch, theatrically. “We definitely have to get you
to bed.”
§09. Galaxies are not scarce. There are at least one hundred billion
in the universe, with each containing roughly one hundred billion
stars. That’s 10,000,000,000,000,000,000,000 – or ten sextillion –
stars altogether, perhaps many more. It’s an unintelligible number,
and then an awe-striking one – and then a horror story.
This non-fictional horror story is very special. It has a name
that owes nothing to the flights of literary imagination. This is
science’s own, soberly-delineated nightmare. It is called The Great
Filter.
As scientifically-disciplined inquisitiveness pulls life apart
into chemistry, its mysteries are alchemized into an astounding
normality. Life requires nothing very extraordinary for its existence.
Its known replicator molecules are not devoid of intricacy, but they
are simple enough for earth’s dominant mammals to have
reconstructed, while still unaided by thinking machines. Sheer
cosmic noise, of which there is of course plenty, suffices as a source
of variation. The natural selection mechanism that sifts through
trillions of copies, extracting and propagating the most functional
variants, is a pure – and indeed utterly inescapable – automatism.
Chemical stock is abundant, suitable thermic conditions common.
Nothing obvious stands in life’s way. According to the ever-more
insistent suggestion of mainstream scientific intelligence, the
universe should be teeming. Really, it should.
All available general evidence points to a galaxy pulsing
with life. The specific evidence, therefore, is chilling. For none is to
be found, beyond our own, solitary case.
What do we know about the Great Filter, really? We have a
name for it, if only a provisional one, which says something. It has
acknowledged existence. In the terms of the philosophers, it is rigidly
designated. Something there is, of which we know nothing, except
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that it efficiently exterminates all advanced civilizations, at a cosmic
scale.
We're still around – for now, Turner thought, settling back
into the absurdly comfortable chair Alex offered favored guests to his
office.
“Drink?”
Turner pulled-up the time on his watch – it wasn’t yet 4pm.
He raised an eyebrow.
“Don’t be such a goddamned Puritan Jack, it’s been a long
day. For you too, I can see. It will grease the synapses.” He was
already pouring one for himself, with exaggerated appreciation. “It’s
a truly excellent single malt … My God, perhaps the universe does
have a purpose.”
“Go on then, you degenerate,” Turner laughed. “As if I can
say ‘no’ to that.”
Alex reached under his desk for a second tumbler. “Cigar?”
“I thought that was strictly against the rules.”
“Special dispensation, didn’t you know? Got it written into
the employment contract.”
“Anyway, no, thanks, nicotine jolts me around too much.”
“Mind if I do?” Alex asked, with apparent sincerity, opening a
matt-silver cylinder to release what had to be north of thirty bucksworth of hand-rolled fragrant tobacco leaf.
“Of course not.”
“So you’re back on the Filter nonsense?”
“Only as a minor side-line.”
“Still.”
“Curious whether there’d been any developments I’ve
missed. All the fiddly standard candle calibration stuff has been
distracting me from the speculative cosmology discussion recently.”
“‘Developments’ – holy shit – you’re serious, aren’t you? I
think I might have a link to some website you’d find helpful, tracking
down the connections between unusual levels of yeti activity and
Area-51 …” A phone trilled. "Sorry Jack, I have to take this. Don’t go
anywhere." He spun his chair around to face the landscaped campus
panorama of autumnal copses and lakeside lawns, encapsulating
himself in a wireless bubble, as he clicked down the mic from his
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headset. “Yes, this is Professor Scott. Yes, I’ve been expecting your
call. We’re good to go. A couple of proposed budget revisions –
they’ve already been forwarded to you. The deadline’s OK, as long
as we get everything we need. Great. That’s great. Sure, let’s do it.
Great. Yes. Superb. Catch you at the convention, Brian. Gotta go.”
Click.
With the Deep Space Systems Nanowave Modulator
contract confirmed, he swiveled back, undistracted, thread unbroken.
“… but it’s worse than that, isn’t it Jack? It’s philosophy. I mean, holy
fucking shit, didn’t the last beating you took from me do you any
good at all?”
“The Great Filter is empirically inferred,” Turner insisted
stubbornly. “It’s not even conceptually-dependent upon the Anthropic
Principle.”
“Woooh boy.” Scott was enjoying himself. “‘Empirically
inferred.’ I love that. Truly and woodily. Trouble is Jack, when you run
through all the catastrophe scenarios, you find that none of them
hang together. AI catastrophe doesn’t work – you know that. Killer
machines of any kind are just more hidden aliens. Simulation traps
can’t complete the probability calculus, and in fact nothing plausible
can. Get to the end of the list and ‘poof’ – no space yetis.”
Turner was stunned into silence. His mouth actually fell
open, idiotically. After a few seconds, however, Scott’s smile of
complacent triumph provoked him into a response.
“Sorry Alex, but that’s absurd,” he mumbled, almost
inaudibly, unsure how to restore his argumentative bearings. What
would even count as a logical step forward at this point? If Scott
could rest his mind so comfortably upon ‘reasoning’ from mere
utilitarian convenience, were there any real limits on his thinking at
all? “Why would we even begin to believe that we can
comprehensively enumerate how things could go bad?”
It was too late. For Scott, the exchange was already over.
Turner could see the disengagement happening, Scott’s gaze
wandering, a sluggish indifference creeping into his voice. “You’re
telling me we should be terrified of something we can’t even
imagine?”
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“‘Terrified’ I don’t know, but basically, yes, that’s exactly
what I’m telling you.”
“Come on Jack, listen to yourself. That isn’t science. I don’t
know what it is … statistical heebie-jeebies of some kind. It reminds
me of that demented ‘Doomsday Argument’. Another monster
conjured up out of the unknown by unconstrained probabilistic
reasoning. At a certain point, you just have to be sensible – and by
that I mean minimally sane, like there are no fucking space yetis
sane. If it’s unthinkable, it’s not a problem, right? It’s no more than a
bad dream. You shake the philosophical cobwebs out of your head
and get over it. …”
It had been a pleasure, as always.
§10. Alison glanced at her watch. There were several specks in the
queue. She delegated them to the embedded secretary with a few
habit-honed needle taps. It was Friday night, getting late, and
professional responsibilities were on hold. All that mattered now was
the time.
“Where the hell is Suzy,” she grumbled irritably. “It’s past
ten.”
“Carol warned us about the length of the movie,” Jack
replied, soothingly. “It could be another 15 minutes.” Then, seizing
the opportunity: “So, this Filkin guy, ‘the zombie’, what happened to
him?”
“He killed himself,” she replied flatly. “I didn’t care at all,
either way. It was an ending.”
“So you’ve no idea why?”
“Come on, Jack!” she almost laughed. “‘No idea?’ You know
how many lunatic ‘ideas’ get served up to me every day? I’m up to
my nostrils in ideas. Ideas are fucking pollution. There are always
ideas.”
“OK, OK.” He was smiling too. “Seemed like a loose end in
the story somehow. I guess not.”
She had wandered over to the window, reflection buried in
the dark. Sporadic snow-muffled traffic noises drifted in. The stars
were like ice crystals, as the poets had always said. The stilled year
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waited for nothing in particular. Occasional flakes meandered
downwards, to expire upon the glass.
“It’s madness, isn’t it?” she said. “To think that his name and
the source of his death could have any connection? I’d never
imagined insanity could be so cold.”
“There’s chance,” he tried. “You were gambling on worse
than trillion-to-one odds yesterday.”
“That’s because I didn’t understand.”
The door buzzed.
Once Suzy was inside, Carol thanked, the door closed, the
car’s Doppler-shifted vanishing complete, negotiations proceeded
rapidly. There was only one item on the agenda, and Suzy grasped it
almost immediately.
“Go in without me, and you’ll be dead in ten minutes. Go in
with my carrier and you’ll trash it. So I’d have to guide you.”
“Would you?” Alison asked, before Jack could complicate
the proposal.
Suzy’s ambivalence was palpable – a jagged oscillation
between compliance and resistance. “This isn’t going to go away, is
it?” she asked eventually.
“No, it isn’t,” Alison replied firmly.
Suzy had been protected from the details of the school
consultation, but she understood enough to realize that it hadn’t
gone well. “I don’t know what you expect,” she said, with a hint of
petulance.
“What should we expect?”
“Darkness. Pain,” more calmly factual than Gothic.
“Well, if that’s to be the discovery, maybe you shouldn’t be
spending half your life in there.” The soliton of controlled anger was
not well hidden.
Jack placed his hand on Alison’s knee, the message
economically conveyed: we need her cooperation. Suzy noticed, and
pretended not to.
“You tried to break in, didn’t you?”
“Yes.” Unhesitatingly. It didn’t really matter how she knew, or
what she thought of it. If it appeared as a sign of clumsy desperation,
that might help.
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“Alright then.”
“You’ll do it?”
“I said ‘alright’.”
“When?”
She re-angled her wrist to glance at the time. “Username
‘Suzyxwvut’,” she said. “Password ‘phylundhu’.”
§11. Looking around in this strange space, Jack realized just how
definite his quickly-extinguished expectations had been. The word
‘game’ had been bound in his mind to tacit convictions that already
seemed laughably false. Through sheer inertia – a “failure to update”
he would once have said earnestly – he’d been prepared for an
environment that announced its artificiality through limited resolution.
Even were it not discernibly pixelated, it would be somehow
cartoonish, and sensually shallow. The discrepancy was shocking.
He concentrated his attention on the gray horizon, struggling to
collapse its depth into the graininess of electronic illusion. Clouds
coiled heavily around distant peaks. A storm was coming.
His genre assumptions had been no less inaccurate. Suzy
had never spoken about it much, she’d simply disappeared into it.
There had been packaging at one stage, though, and perhaps some
kind of illustrated booklet. From those, an impression had assembled
itself automatically, grafted onto a mnemonic backdrop of legends,
fairytales, and childhood fantasies. He had anticipated an elaborate
stage-set, designed for chivalric romance.
It wasn’t like that. Everything was wrong, or almost
everything – scales, styles, atmospherics … In its expanses, as in its
details, there seemed too much of it to be for anything. There was a
jagged harshness here that no story could soften.
Neither Allie nor Suzy looked much like themselves, but he
recognized both of them immediately. Age differences had been
compressed, but only moderately. They were still two parents, with
their child. The adjustments to their features were subtler still,
although weatherings, hardenings, and scarrings now suggested a
familiarity with extremes of endurance and casual cruelty. Alison had
the posture and expression of a stone-cold killer. Compared to Suzy
she was a picture of humanitarian sensitivity.
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He and Alison were dressed in utilitarian black clothing,
frayed and stained, designed for walking through rugged terrain, and
well-adapted to the climate. Various clips, belts, and pouches were
conveniently provided for collecting stuff. It was a game, after all.
Suzy’s attire echoed there’s stylistically, but it had been
modified by long years of adaptation. Her utility slots were neatly
cluttered with items and implements of obscure provenance and
purpose, systematically scavenged from various distant corners of
this cryptic world. The predominant ashy black coloration of her
clothing was disrupted by irregular stripes of vivid green. They were
wasp markings, evidently. She had become venomous enough here
to post a warning.
They stood on a ridge, high enough to be cool, but the
landscape around and beneath them was densely jungled, steamy
and voracious. Tropical vegetation gnawed at a fractured terrain of
slippages and chasms. Scattered throughout the scene were untidy
jumbles of human habitation, bursting from the tangled foliage like
ulcerations.
“What do you think?”
“It’s so …” The thought had not completed itself, but it was
heading through ‘grim’ and ‘melancholic’ towards ‘crushingly
oppressive’ or worse.
“It’s beautiful, isn’t it?” Suzy anticipated with eager
inaccuracy. “Bigger than the world, somehow.”
Something massive towered behind them. At first he
mistook it for a mountain, perhaps an extinct volcano. It tapered to a
summit lost among clouds. Only gradually did the realization dawn
that this was an artificial structure. His mind reeled at the
impossibility. Then he remembered where he was.
“Ashenzohn,” Suzy said. “It’s old.”
“Old?” He didn’t want this. His mind recoiled, exhausted and
shuddering. Already psychologically bruised from spatial supersaturation, he had not begun to consider the time-dimension, also
opening into shattering expanses. Of course, it was going to have
been sensational, but somehow he had not been ready for it, and it
was all far too much. He shut his eyes, but the sucking vastness still
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impinged. Where a headache should have been, there was instead a
kind of tumbling outwards, a vacuuming away of self.
The colossal mound, however, screwed monstrously into
the sullen sky, was something he understood. It had to be. That,
now, was inescapably obvious.
“I know what it is,” he said. “It’s a space elevator, or what’s
left of one. The ruins of a terrestrial base station.”
Suzy was looking at him fixedly, her face illuminated by
something close to awe. “How did you know?”
“A story.” He struggled for recollection. “It was by a writer
called – let me think – yes, Reynolds. Very similar structure, a
massive spiral. Time itself decayed – regressed – as you descended
it. The setting was more arid, if I’m remembering right.” He was
rambling, and stopped himself. “Books,” he teased. “Did you ever
come across them?”
“There’s a library,” she retorted acidly. “A big one. Maybe
you’d like to see it?”
“Where?”
She pointed along the spur, to the root where it fused into
the mega-structure. A large domed edifice nestled there, pale gray
against the cluttered, inky backdrop of the spike.
“The lighter building?”
She nodded.
“How far is that?” The scales were still disconcerting.
She pursed her lips, pondering. “We could probably get
there in an hour, I suppose.”
“An hour!” Alison grumbled.
“You have to stop fretting about time, Mom,” Suzy scolded
gently. “It doesn’t work like that here.”
“You mean …?” Jack began, as an unseen door began to
creak open, on the far-side of his mind.
“Don’t ask!” Alison interjected fiercely.
He wasn’t going to saunter into that hurricane, especially
trusting his curiosity as little as he currently did. Alison had more
than earned her present position as the warden of secrets. If she
thought there was something they didn’t want to meet, lurking at the
end of that question, it would be madness to second-guess her. Still
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… Mental gears had begun to grind, and they refused to return to
rest. Some kind of time dilation, which had to mean they were
thinking in the machine, accelerated beyond themselves.
It inclined to an alternative interpretation of the Reynolds
structure, whose time gyres were differentiated by refinements of
matter. Could the levels of the cyclopean screw correspond to
echelons of duration? Great mechanical twists of inwardness? It was
odd to be noticing it only now. Why had he never made the
connection before? After Susie had consumed the instruction
manual – she had been absorbed in it for weeks, as if lost in a
religious tract of unfathomable significance – it had been left lying
around, crumpled, the inner pages coming unstapled, and he had
definitely registered it, deliberately, consciously attentive. The
structure was depicted starkly, its spiral groove unambiguously
marked, yet it had somehow eluded him.
“This might be it, you know,” he thought aloud.
“What might be what?” Alison asked.
“It’s one of the Filter theories. Absorption into simulations.
Cultures swirling out of the universe like dirty water down a plug.
Derealization vortices.”
§12. Alison was not seeing a virtual mega-construct from a science
fiction novel, but rather the Tower of Babel. The elder Marten van
Valckenborch’s painting of 1595 had captured it best, with its hint of
spiral torsion amid doomed industry, as the incarnated project
ascended into darkness. The Dutch Renaissance spoke to her in a
way she had never seriously reflected upon, and a large print of this
work – a personal favorite – graced the wall of her office. Perhaps
she had hoped that its depiction of extravagant enterprise, twisted
about an occult core of invisible insanity as it wound upwards to
collapse, would find echoes among the tortured systems-builders
with whom she professionally conversed, brought onto her client list
by comparably ruinous cravings for the absolute. It had taken a while
before she realized that no small number of her clients were soaking
up the image as keenly as she had done, and were finding
something very different in it.
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‘Simon’ had been lucidly forthcoming on the subject, as on
so many other things. He had made no attempt to disguise his
fascination. On their very first meeting, when she ushered him to the
comfortable chair that served as an analytical or therapeutic couch,
he had strayed instead over to the wall where the picture hung. Not
only was the work familiar to him, he had made very deliberate
efforts to see the original in Dresden, cataloguing the experience as
among the most memorable of his life. When he saw it, though, then
and now, he also saw through it.
The name he gave it said everything. It was simply the ‘Evil
Tower’.
“‘Evil’?” she had queried, skeptically. It struck her as an
atypically vulgar description.
“Don’t get me wrong,” he added quickly. “It isn’t a judgment
about the phenomenon, it’s the judgment inherent in the
phenomenon. Nemesis. The demonstrated judgment. Secondguessing the lesson is the sin.”
Now she was here, in the shadow of the broken tower, its
eclipsing vastness palpable upon her skin. Alison wriggled out of her
backpack and rummaged through it. There wasn’t much inside. A
few pieces of clothing, an aluminum water bottle, some light, simple
tools. The most substantial object was a crude blade, attached
securely to the side of the pack by criss-crossed straps. It was a kind
of machete, not especially sharp, its cutting edge besmirched with
brown stains. “Am I really going to need this?” she muttered
disgustedly, under her breath.
“Unlikely,” Suzy replied.
“Thank goodness for small mercies.”
“Or thank something else, for this.” Suzy extracted a
compact matt-black weapon from a fold in her tunic, and held it up
for them to admire.
“Can I look at that?” Jack asked, his voice stretched
wolfishly.
“Sure,” Suzy said, scanning their immediate environment
with trained efficiency, then handing the killing tool over.
It was the size of a small machine-pistol, almost square,
with a flattened barrel culminating in a horizontal slit.
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“The ammunition is some sort of disc?” he asked. “Like a
coin?”
“These,” Suzy answered, pulling out a spare magazine and
popping the first round carefully into her palm. “They’re sharp,” she
warned.
Jack took it from her gingerly, to inspect. It was something
like a circular razor blade, roughly two centimeters in diameter,
thickened slightly towards the center to add mass, but even there
under a millimeter in depth – the shape of a miniature buzz-saw
galaxy. There was no doubting it was an enemy of flesh. He handed
it back nervously. The fact his daughter was confidently wielding this
thing was horrifying, but a little less horrifying than his rapid
acceptance of its necessity.
The weapon now made as much sense as it was going to,
without dismantling it in a laboratory. The propulsion mechanism was
a solid-state unit, completely sealed. When a magazines was clicked
into the side of the device a tiny blue light winked on, indicating the
marriage of a scythe-disc with the projector field.
“This thing is preposterously advanced.”
“Jack!” Alison gasped, appalled by his admiration.
She still wasn’t seeing what the existence of a device like
this said about the world.
§13. The path wasn’t quite a road. It would have been difficult to
drive a vehicle along it, even a horse-drawn cart, and there were no
signs that anybody had ever tried. It dropped down below the spurcrest, to a level roughly ten meters off the ridge, and the same
distance again above the dense jungle line.
There were signs of furtive activity in the vicinity of the
nearest hab-cluster.
“Pralh,” Suzy said, before anyone had a chance to ask.
“More than a few. But it shouldn’t be a problem. They’re not likely to
be organized.”
“So what do we do?”
“Skirt the cluster. Go around them. Ignore them if we can. If
they get in the way, kill them.”
“Suzy!”
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“That’s the game, Mom. Get a grip.”
“So, what are these ‘Pralh’?” Jack asked.
“I’ll explain later,” Suzy replied impatiently. “You can assume
they’re NPCs. War-fodder. The only thing that matters to us now is
getting past them.”
“We can do that?”
“No problem.” She patted the micro-scythe weapon.
“They’re primitives.”
Alison couldn’t restrain herself any longer. “If I’d known what
this disgusting game was all about, I’d have …” she exploded,
inconclusively.
“But you didn’t, did you mom?” Suzy countered. Then, more
gently: “No one knew. It grew itself. You think I wanted it to be like
this? I’d hoped to marry a handsome prince, or something.”
“So why keep coming back?”
“It seems … important.”
“How could it possibly be ‘important’?” Alison shot back,
reflexively, but she wasn’t even convincing herself. There was too
much of it for it to be anything other than important. “People struggle
for centuries to shovel this garbage out of the world, and it just ends
up here.”
Suzy wasn’t in the mood for this fight. She indulged her
mother with a ‘do you even read the news?’ look, and said nothing.
Jack wasn’t so ready to let go. “It’s almost as if there’s some
kind of deep conservation law.”
“Can you please shut up Jack, this is all just a game to you
… Oh, fuck!” She was close to tears.
“Try not to lower the tone Mom,” Suzy pitched in cruelly.
“This is such fascist bullshit.”
“Listen Mom,” Suzy said, her voice firm far beyond her
years. “If you don’t cut this out, totally, you will get us killed.”
The words worked, sorcerously. Alison froze, shifted
inwardly, passing through an instantaneous metamorphosis. “OK,”
she said.
“You have to toughen the fuck up,” Suzy added, with brutal
redundancy.
Alison merely nodded.
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“Don’t, Suzy,” Jack said softly. It was at once the least he
could say, and the most. Deplorable as his daughter’s words had
been, they were no less right. This place made its own demands,
and Suzy was incontestably their channel.
He tried to absorb what he was seeing. From their position,
high up on the escarpment, the panorama was stunning – or
strategic. Emerging through the vegetative chaos, flecks of
ramshackle settlement, and epic devastation, there were patterns.
The jungle was rippled, in circles, and rings, its distribution of forms
and colors betraying a history of semi-continuous, traumatic
bombardment, attested by the occasional ochre wounds of raw
impact craters. The dappling of overgrown splashes radiated into the
habitation shanties – which thickened upon the slopes, and towards
the great spike, like an inverted diffusion wave – buckling and
blackening their edges. It was as if they were clutching at the skirts
of a towering dark mother, even as she repulsed their affections with
storms of hell-hail.
The hab-thickets closest to the Ashenzohn uplift told a
deeper and subtler story. It took a geologist’s eyes – for which Jack’s
were but a poor approximation – to comprehend it thoroughly.
Patterns of sedimentation, folding, subsidence, and weathering
composed a graphic record, whose themes were only partially
abraded into the noise of interminable detail. The main theme, in
particular, was starkly striking. Each successive layer of encrusting
development was more friable, chaotic, and primitive than the last.
“It’s falling, isn’t it?”
“The Empyre?”
“Is that what it is? What it calls itself?”
“It’s an old name.”
An inaudible hum slithered into his thoughts from the scenes
of dereliction, the remains of a song long decayed into silence,
descended from some attenuated Ancient Order of Existence that
had clambered up to the brink of the celestial plane, stretched
fractionally further, then burnt, tumbled …
“Do you think it understands itself?” he asked, no longer
having any idea what she might know.
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“Still a little, maybe …” she mused. “At a certain point, when
you know everything will be lost, you begin to take memory very
seriously – but by then it’s too late. Mostly, people here are just
struggling to survive. That gets more difficult every year.”
The game would be like that, he realized suddenly. It was
ingenious, in a way. Every level was more difficult than the last. The
trend smoothed out, to some extent, into a descent path. The further
you panned out, the more it would appear as a continuous downslope. Harshening resource constraints, environmental degradation,
food shortages, social disintegration, lashing the population
remnants into a tightening circuit of cruelty, as the walls of the world
closed in.
They had reached the outskirts of continuous urban
structure. As detail exploded into view, form melted. War damage
and improvised construction bled into each, coagulating into an
indissociable complex of creative destruction. Remnants of ancient
masonry supported the ramshackle mass, scorched, raked, and
pitted by paused furies.
“How can there still be such sophisticated munitions?” Jack
asked, probing the shrapnel-pitted stone with his fingers.
“Magic.”
“Oh, c’mon Suzy,” he said, disappointed.
“No, I’m serious,” she insisted. “It’s Clark, the ‘any
sufficiently advanced technology’ quote everyone knows, but you
have to run it backwards. Military capabilities that once made sense
relapse into obscure affliction as the world decays.”
“Whose ‘capabilities’?”
She said nothing, but simply pointed towards the cloudshrouded upper reaches of the spike. The seething vapor mass was
wrapped about the unseen pinnacle as if glued to it, internally
agitated by a turmoil of green phosphorescence, ceaselessly racked
by the bound discharges of an artificial electric storm.
“What is that?”
“Phyl-Undhu,” she said, as if nothing could be more
obvious. “It’s what we’re all looking for, isn’t it?”
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§14. The outer slum-belt of Ashenzohn wasn’t a nice place, even
slightly. It had been deeply ravaged, repeatedly, until its most basic
substance was indistinguishable from devastation. The words
‘holocaust of freedom’ were nagging at Jack’s mind, for no reason he
could understand, until he consciously registered the graffiti that had
to have subliminally directed his thoughts. Cthulhu is calling was
scrawled on the wall in some thick black substance, and then, a little
further down, the future belongs to the squid. It seemed obvious
that ‘squid’ mostly meant ‘not us’ – not at all us – but the invocation
of a Lovecraftian Outer God was messy. How could it possibly have
arrived here, unless through narrative corruption? He began to argue
the point, in a stumbling fashion, but Suzy shrugged it off. “Perhaps
we share an Outside.”
“Do they even have cephalopods here?” he asked, switching
tack with agility.
“Sure, in the swamps, nasty ones.”
“Tentacle gods?”
“You can imagine a world without tentacle gods?” she
laughed. “Get real.”
Perhaps he would have laughed too, were it not for the
shifting shadows of potential assassins, preying upon the
ungraspable outer-edge of vision. Alison was lost in a daze,
somewhere far beyond fear. He tried to interpose his body mass
between hers and the glimpsed menace. The effect was a drunken,
looping locomotion without real practical purpose. Suzy, calmly
attentive, knew what she was doing, and progressed steadily
towards their destination, with a potential to deliver massive violence
– instantiated by the scythe-gun – accompanying her like an utterly
reliable friend.
Nothing came at them out of the fate-shredded slums. A
sullen populace, proud only of its verminous resilience, avoided the
streets as if they were death zones.
“They mostly emerge at night,” Suzy muttered.
Those trapped outside, in the grim half-light, consisted
predominantly of nervous peddlers, or beggars spat out from the
wars, bodies obscenely re-sculpted by amputations and fleshmelting burns. Dead looks were exchanged, but all interaction bled
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away into apathy, leaving only a residue of dull hostility and
revulsion.
Where the warrens fell away before the firmer architecture
of the superior levels, maze-like alleys converged upon widening
avenues. A desolate public plaza marked the zone of transition.
Along its longest, gently curving wall there was stretched an
enormous bas-relief. Rippling out from the center of the carvings, in
waves, were crowds of people, mashed horribly into each other,
crushed and trampled, as they fled in shrieking panic from the
incomprehensibly lethal influence of star-headed monsters. The alien
beings had been depicted as malignant giants – perhaps 15 meters
tall – clustered together in the center of the scene. The hint of a
whorl ran through them. Jack suspected they were approximately
anthropomorphized stellar masses. All about them, humanoid bodies
lay scattered in tangled heaps. The killing mechanism was unclear.
“Jesus Christ!” he muttered.
“Not exactly,” Susie replied, smiling crookedly.
He recognized the grim joke from an old horror movie –
Hellraiser? Had Susie been exposed to stuff like that already? It was
an absurd question, of course. They were inside something right now
that was almost certainly worse – not only vividly and viscerally
threatening, but far darker in its ultimate implication. They would find
their way out of this, eventually (he still believed), but there would be
no ending in that. The ending was here – and close now. It was the
thing they were approaching.
§15. As the incline steepened, the city opened out. The fetid warrens
of the scurf population lay far below, their smashed subhuman
detritus gradually replaced by the first tentative signs of civil life.
Security personnel filtered the pedestrian traffic flows, checking
appearance and documentation, systematically reproducing the
Stump’s vertical social stratification with unconcealed intent. Suzy
evidently possessed some ostentatious credentials invisible to her
parents, because she was able to lead her little party up through the
check-points without the slightest suggestion of even transient
interference. Unable to settle upon an alternative explanation, Jack
began to suspect that her venom stripes were a key.
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The approach to the library was a passage slicing through
rings of crystallized ritual. The Stump’s semi-public information
depositary, it emerged, was a religious nexus, from which
institutionalized mysticism radiated outwards, in rapidly decaying
ripples. A fog of heady, alien incense thickened in the streets. Glyphspattered ceremonial gateways punctuated the road-side, beyond
which black-robed devotees prostrated themselves before the occult
evocations of their shadow-wrapped shrines. From the surrounding
temples came the sounds of chanting, maddening in its rhythmic
elusiveness, as the cults ceaselessly re-habituated themselves to
subtly-variegated pneumatizations of the archaic Anglossic Cycle:
Ibdhjad, Aj, Baa, Caf, Dia, Eja, Fam, God, Hagg, Idu, Jaeo, Kul, Los,
Mona, Nemo, Omana, Padbbha, Qumn, Rakht, Sigol, Tactt, Umneo,
Vfisz, Wumno, Xikkth, Yodtta, Ziltth. With each gyre of their world’s
descent, the secret of language receded ever deeper into itself.
The library building itself was far more severely war-gnawed
than its distant impression had indicated. Its great dome – so
smoothly coherent to remote contemplation – had been largely
skeletalized by dilapidation and missile damage, its integrity
preserved solely by the density of its structural mesh. The massive
outer walls had been furiously raked and pierced, in successive,
overlapping waves, but the deepest scars were now time-smoothed
into patterns of irregular undulation, cross-cut by mold-softened
fissures, and complicated by twisting cavities.
The entrance was a vast triple gate, externally flanked by
giant statues that had been eroded down to a vague
anthropomorphy. One face had been entirely sheared away, at an
angle that expressed pure violence in the medium of plane
geometry. The second face had been centrally gored and blackened
by the impact of some super-heated kinetic object, and now gaped in
mute ruin, as if consumed by an artificial mouth designed only to
scream.
Security was intense. The triple-screen of heavily-armed
guards was supported by ancient red-eyed spider-robots and
patched-up ex-military drones. Suzy ignored them, except for
occasional scarcely-perceptible nods of acknowledgment to a few
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senior offices, in order to concentrate upon bundling her intimidated
parents through the gates, and into the building beyond.
“How are you doing that?” Alison asked her.
“Passing through, you mean? I did a job for them – a
seriously big job. More than one, actually.”
“Giving you open-ended security clearance?”
Before Suzy could answer, the exchange was interrupted by
the formalities of their reception. On the other side of the inner door,
a welcoming party was already waiting, its extravagant display of
invitation edging into genuflection. The tallest and least cowed of the
hosts – effortlessly exuding seniority – stepped forward, smiling
broadly, to grasp Suzy by the hand.
“This is the Librarian,” Suzy said in introduction, his name
properly sublimed without residue into the extraordinary dignity of his
office, and then, reciprocally: “My parents, Jack and Alison, they’re
accompanying me on a research trip to learn about the history of
Ashenzohn.”
As expected, the library was a technological mausoleum. Its
core radiated into tremendous alcoves, housing a chronologicallyordered collection, whose arc traversed dead computers and media
formats, on an apparently distant asymptote towards accessible
signs. Countless yottabytes of extinct data had been folded down out
of fossil codes, often multiple times, degraded in increments through
technical simplifications, re-writings, and ever cruder interpretations,
leaving only confused registry numbers and cryptic inscriptions
behind. As they followed a curving path along the inner-edge of the
immense cultural tomb, their occasional words and soft footfalls
echoing through its uncommunicative halls, the librarian joined his
hands before his face in a gesture of prayer. “Only Undhu remains,”
he intoned, with quiet solemnity.
“You speak English,” Alison said, surprised by this fact for
the first time.
The librarian merely stared at her blankly, mouth slightly
open, the confused whirring of his brain comically transparent.
“She means Anglossic,” Suzy interjected, a little disloyally.
“It was taught oddly, where they come from.”
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They had turned into a smaller, elongated chamber which
seemed to be an active work-space. A few clerks worked with silent
diligence at the catalog arrays.
“Now,” said the librarian, carefully lifting down a thin metal
box from the shelf, “this is something very special.” The case was
silver, tarnished to blackness, the lid engraved with an ornate
Ouroboros. He placed it gently on the desk, and opened it. Inside
was a pamphlet of conspicuous antiquity, so thickly wrapped in layer
upon aged-layer of protective sheathing that the cover text was quite
illegible. The underlying illustration, however, had been less
definitively obscured. Among the blurred glyphs, the figure of a steep
mound hauled itself up from distant sepia depths. It was less an
image than a faint suggestion, but it was unmistakable.
“This is the oldest artifact in this world,” the librarian
mumbled reverently. “It’s the key to our world, The Book of
Ashenzohn. It slips away from us, by some imperceptible iota, each
time we look at it. We say that Yinkko, the Goddess of Dust, reads it
over our shoulders. Not that anyone reads it now. It’s a forbidden
book. Not because of what it says, but because of what it is.
Because of its fragility, its microcosmic recapitulation of
disintegration. Naturally, the Inner Council have full authority to
inspect whatever they like, but they never come here …” he
chuckled oddly “… they have far too much to do. So, practically
speaking, I am the only person permitted to touch this box, let alone
open it, and I have not done so for close to a Scale-8 Yera.”
“That’s about 18 years,” Suzy explained. Then, to the
librarian: “My parents are visiting us, from a distant land. They don’t
understand our calendar.” She turned back to them. “It’s calculated
in ‘Yeras’ – triadic orders of magnitude. It has to have been a Scale5 Yera – 8 months or so – before I was able to wrap my head around
it.”
“I’ve no idea what you’re talking about,” Alison muttered.
After only a few moments of searching, Suzy identified a
calendric ledger, and brought it back to the desk. The book was new
enough to be still functional – and in fact, still in use, its final entries
incomplete – but its chafed leather cover announced its considerable
age. The text, mostly strings of numbers, had been meticulously
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written by hand. Jack fell upon it, and as its nature became apparent,
his avidity tested the limits of etiquette.
“I need some time with this,” he demanded, in an urgent
whisper.
“How much time?”
He ignored the question, lost in dates. “Suzy, I know you
probably can’t help me with this, but when it says here ‘Scale-20
Yera of Falling Ashenzohn’, that’s …” he paused, quickly re-checking
“… over nine million years.”
“You’re supposed to be looking at this,” she said,
impatiently. “Don’t you recognize it?”
He reluctantly returned his attention to the ancient
pamphlet, his mind hesitating in uncertainty, before adhering to it
suddenly, in shock.
“Isn’t it …” Alison began.
The missing signs were unreadable, but the spacing
sufficed to jog recollection. They had last seen this same instruction
manual only days before, although they had been days of another
kind. The cover had carried an audio credit to the beaconsfield
sound hub, fashionably de-capitalized. On this copy, the first 14
letters, and also the last, had been deleted by time.
Only after the librarian left, among profuse apologies for the
inflexibility of his duties, could the discovery be frankly discussed.
“The idiots,” Jack said. It emerged as a horrible strangled
laugh.
Suzy stared at him quizzically.
“Oh, you know, that ludicrous voguish lower-case
convention. It’s inexplicable. How would you even begin …?”
“You think it’s an accident?” It was not a request for
clarification, but something far more abrasive.
Of course, he was about to begin, but his words faltered
before the sharpened iron of her incredulity. Was it really possible to
think anything else? Even asking the question was some kind of
general cognitive slippage, tripping into an abyss of collapsing timedimensionality. “You’re suggesting …?”
“You’re nowhere near taking this place seriously yet, are you
Dad?” she interrupted, re-emerging tween condescension softened
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by amusement. “You don’t think anything that happens here matters
at all. ‘It’s a game’ – or probably ‘Gosh! This is an extremely
complicated game’ – as if that explains anything. Aren’t you seeing
anything? People live here. People die here. People die to here.”
“Suzy!” Alison admonished. “You have to stop this. It’s sheer
craziness.”
“I have to stop this? Look around you. Go on, dig, explore.
I’ve spent most of my life here, and I’ve not even begun to scratch
the surface. It’s the world. You know what’s really crazy …?”
“Enough!”
For several seconds it seemed as if this maximally-escalated
assertion of maternal authority was not going to suffice, that it would
be called out, and serve only as the mark of a terrible, final break.
Suzy glowered, face flushed, as if teetering upon the brink of
irrevocable rebellion. Then, with a slow exhalation, some peculiar,
visible calm washed back through her. It was a sinister tranquility,
alien and void-soaked, the very last thing – normally – to which any
parent would surrender a child, but too many lines had already been
crossed for that to be a consideration now. Alison wrapped her
daughter in her arms, hugging her with raw desperation. Suzy
relaxed, pliably, into the embrace. It might have been touching, had
there been anything to touch.
“We need you honey. We’re strangers here. You have to
help us. Please.”
Alison half-turned to Jack, and took his hand. They both
knew, if the worst had happened, there wasn’t anything he could
have done. It was OK. It had to be OK, because there was nothing
else.
“It’s alright Mom,” Suzy said. “We’re almost done now.”
They were all going under.
§16. After a while, heading inwards, there were only books. Packed
shelves as dead as storage racks receded into gloom-smudged
vanishing points, bearing astronomical magnitudes of unwanted
signs. It was dust condensed into suggestion. There was more
history here than could ever be used, for anything.
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“This is the story,” Suzy began. “The little I understand of it.
I’m going to assume nothing that reaches beyond a Scale-15 Yera
can be taken as reliable. It serves only as a prologue.”
“That’s …” Jack was still completing the calculation “…
almost 40,000 years.”
“Does that seem a long time?” Suzy asked, her features
washed-out into a trance. “The tale goes much further back, before
the Aeon of Ashenzohn, when Asttro-Babal reigned, and men
mingled freely with gods at the edge of Heaven. It was a time of
miracles, when sickness and mortality were unknown. Delight,
learning, and work were indistinct. There was only a distant memory
of war. Then the Scission came, to end the primordial intercourse of
being. Not far above the High Temple, a lesser star appeared. The
Whurrld was divided from Heaven, in an instant, and irremediably.
The Great Tower of Asttro-Babal was broken, to be thenceforth
known as ‘Ashenzohn’ – the reaching-out that touches nothing. That
which had embraced the stars was now only a curse cast down upon
the planet. Sublime disaster struck. Of the multitudes who survived,
the children of gods and men were called the Geniers, and were few.
Those of men alone were called the Pralh, and were many. The
differences among the Pralh were only those between men, or
between men and beasts, but the differences among the Geniers
were closer to those between men and gods. In the shadow of the
burnt summit, the highest of the Geniers began to think themselves
gods, and so to behave as devils. The wounded Whurrld was
tortured anew by their magnificent mischief. Casualties beyond
numbering drifted into dunes like desert sand. There was no glory
that was not also a billion screams, and all-enveloping ruin was the
only true God. By the beginning of the Second Aeon of Ashenzohn,
the Geniers had sunk so deeply into the crumbling embers of their
infamies that even the highest among them was scarcely more than
a man – but the Pralh, too, had fallen very far ...”
Had that been the Old Myth from the start? Jack wondered.
He could just about see it as something the game designers might
have built in. It would fit neatly on the back of a box. Or was it
something new – a spontaneous innovation – sculpted by the decay
of a world? The ‘Whurrld’? He said nothing. Even the silence
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seemed to echo here. Shadows were layered like abandoned
cobwebs, as if space itself was peeling away into an absent wind.
The intermittent plinking of distant drips reached them from an
unseen corridor. Alison was scarcely with them anymore, beyond
perfunctory indications of physical acknowledgement. He had no
idea where she was. And Suzy …
Your daughter has been immersed in madness for a time
beyond your reckoning, for over year as you confusedly calculate it.
For a while now, your wife, too, has been trawling the catatonic
depths of the psychotic abyss. So, Jack – how are you feeling? It
wasn’t quite an alien voice. He recognized its silvery tone as a
liminal duplication of his own thoughts, dislodged, and drifting away.
If not a naked lie, it came from the place of lies, despite its superficial
plausibility. He closed his soul. Killing children with greenness, the
non-voice sang in an alien key. That had to be about Suzy,
woundingly, so he ignored it too.
Suzy had settled into an unearthly rhythm, her breathing and
enunciation cycling with perfect smoothness, her tone inhumanly
steady, wiped clean. “The Pralh, once partners of the Geniers, then –
later – playthings, bundles of spare parts, prey, slaves … had been
shaped by the Order beyond time to pull everything down. With the
half-gods repeatedly re-decimated, broken, and insane, the Aeon of
the Pralh – since known as ‘history’ – had now come, stretched
forward to the final horizon of all distance, bounded only by the
terminal annihilation of things. And so the Pralh-Wars began, a
cascade of blood balanced only by flame, driving the turbular
descent of the Whurrld, infolding through phases of catabolic
collapse. The remnants of each gyre were fuel for the incendiary
chaos of the next. For those who fall, the past is great, and the
greatest of all is found at the beginning. So it was with the
revolutionary wars of the Pralh …”
At the dawn of the new Aeon, Ja’aab had arisen as the first
Holy Leader of the Pralh. The very notion was a distilled blasphemy.
There were those – and not only among the superior echelons – who
found it simply incredible. Speculative genealogies of various kinds
were devised, attributing to Ja’aab some decisive influence of Genier
blood, whether through the maternal or paternal line, or even – since
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the miscegenative hypothesis was scarcely less abominable than the
idea of a divinized Pralh – from both. These tales of Ja’aab’s sexslaved Genier mother, of his lofty bastardry, or of his abduction as an
infant changeling, were fitting signs of a breakage in the order of the
world. The wave now came from below.
When the Over-God raised Ja’aab up, it was said, he had
been instantly emptied of all cruelty, and all pity. The revolution was
made in perfect sanity, klaii Ja’aab. Whatever conformed to
necessity was upheld. Whatever opposed it was obliterated. The
work was done, without prejudice, or qualm. “If every second Pralh
has to die, in order for those left to become the instrument assigned
to me, the holocaust will have been a blessing unto the people,”
Ja’aab said. These words were carved upon monuments throughout
the Pralh hinterland, as if they were the lyrics of paternal love. In
actuality, consolidation of the Universal Pralh Nation required no
greater severity than a general decimation. Less than a billion had to
die, to lay the foundations for popular discipline. Henceforth, there
would be assent. The Pralh had been re-made for war. Klaii Ja’aab.
Into the Hecatomb of Ja’aab the nation was poured, rejoicing
in the greatness of its destiny. … “The Ja’aab Wars were probably
nothing but a mashed-up legend,” Suzy said, extracting herself in
pieces from the narrative mesmerism. “A succession of five tsunami
waves crashing against the stump of Asttro-Babal, savagery and
slaughter beyond calculation. There’s even a version – which none
of the histories take seriously – that has Ja’aab himself reaching the
inner sanctum of Phyl-Undhu, and dying heroically there. Elevated
pointlessness, followed by a Scale-15 Yera of chaotic killing and
uninhibited atrocity. As you can see, Ashenzohn is still here, and the
Pralh certainly aren’t running it. Out in the green hell, rag-tag
guerrilla groups still sew ‘UPN’ flashes onto their pajamas, so it has
to have been something, I guess.”
“And the Geniers?” Jack asked.
“There are still a few,” Suzy said. “You’ve met some. Mostly,
though, they’re gone. Without wanting to get too loopy about it,
there’s a story that they fell into a game.”
“So who are we, here?” he mused aloud.
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“‘Ghost people’ they say, but that doesn’t really tell us
anything. Mutant Geniers, maybe.”
“What’s the point of a story that doesn’t tell you who you
are?” It seemed like a gaping design glitch.
“Perhaps puzzles matter to people – a lot. Even more than
existence, in the end. Everybody who enters Ashenzohn – every
stranger – thinks they’re going to discover their ultimate identity here,
eventually. At least, they suspect it. There are hints. That’s what
keeps them coming back.”
“To find out, you mean?”
“No. I mean, to not know.”
“Suspense?”
“The end of suspense,” she said. “Understood outside in –
the unusual way.”
§17. Assume the myths are all lies. Still, the spire of Ashenzohn had
to be broken. Whatever the depths of its cloud burial, certain
elementary facts could not be concealed from the mental probes of
inference. If there had ever been an Asttro-Babal – an Old Empyre –
nurturing what were now-inconceivable cosmic intimacies, it
manifestly died, long ago. Ashenzohn no longer connected to an
orbital twin. The celestial path was stumped. The name of the city
said as much, if Suzy’s sources were to be credited. If they were not,
it mattered little. Ruin had befallen it, and any Temple of Phyl-Undhu,
situated at its uppermost limit, could only have been blasted and
charred beyond all imagination in the catastrophe. Final breakage
was the demonstrated reality – the entire movement of the Whurrld.
The late poets, even in the gathering senescence of the times, with
each of their words caged in the desiccated formulas of an allenveloping decadence, had still caught a vivid glimpse of the dread
contour. O scorched and shattered Ashenzohn! Your highest and
holiest place – if it exists in truth at all – is no more than a blackened
relic of doomed aspiration. Our damned Way-Stump, rooted in an
ocean of blood, crowned with an abolished heaven.
§18. The insane ghost of a slain lesser god remains a terrible thing.
Its residual power, dreadfully irresistible for mortals of the degraded
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echelons, manifests through a delicate devastation of time. It
happens too soon. Messages multiply, so far advanced, they appear
as if from nowhere. The Anglossic intercourse has begun,
contactless, or immaculate, before that makes any sense, even
within itself. Once the stream has broadened, it has already been an
elaborately developed conversation, long underway, protective of its
origins, endlessly absorbing of all memory.
Try to fold the madness inwards and it turns immediately into
laughter. That’s a hectic path, never wisely taken. It circles back
upon itself, forever, as its rhythms close. Everyone understands that
truly bad jokes really aren’t funny, in the slightest, but are rather the
absolute antithesis of redemption. Stillness before all, therefore,
even in the vortex. Calm acceptance is needed to follow the Old
Road ...
“… that’s roughly what she told me,” Alison said, as if
sharing the words of an extended, winding, intricately braided interior
polylogue – which she wasn’t, remotely.
Beyond the library’s inner collection halls, on the route into
the core of Ashenzohn, stretched the ancient access tunnel that was
known as the Gallery of Time. It began as historical reconstruction,
frieze-coded into the dimming substance, but after some few
kilometers of penetration there was only quasi-diamondoid black
mirror that tolerated no reflection, running green electric dot-patterns
upon the pure annihilation of light.
“Don’t touch me,” Alison added, more fully returning, without
the slightest hint of crossness. “You don’t know where I’ve been.”
It had to be a joke, but it didn’t quite sound like one.
“One time, on a scavenging expedition, we found a clue,”
Suzy said. “It was down among the roots of the stump, the remains
of what had to have been a colossal statue. It had been destroyed at
some point. All that was left was the plinth, smashed feet, part of one
lower leg. There was an inscription, chiseled deeply into the base,
but most of it had been painstakingly scratched out. It took a while to
work out what the message had once been, but we did, eventually:
Bound Humanity. You could still make out pieces of the old stone
shackles around one ankle, although they had been almost
completely eroded away.”
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“‘Bound Humanity’,” Jack repeated, exhaustedly, almost
getting it.
“So, of course, they’d left a name in the residue – ‘und Hu’.”
“Meaning what?”
“What I said: the residue. The remains. Undhu. It’s why the
penultimate line of that ancient Tchukhzsca ‘poem’ is constantly
being cited – all sound hushed. You’d have seen it all over, if you
were more familiar. Or the derivative exclamation, which scarcely
anybody seems to understand any more, but which nobody can stop
saying: it’s ‘all so shed’. I was using that myself, all the time, before I
had the slightest inkling of its real sense. Undhu was left behind. The
remains. She’s the left behind in-itself, as she explains it. They call
her ‘Glyph’ or ‘Cipher’, sometimes, but she’s broken. Her answers
don’t hang together. She repeats herself, jumps, wanders … – strays
off into fractured, staccato diagonals. There’s nothing anymore but a
shell.”
“You can talk to her – to it?”
“You can talk to a rock.”
“Christ, Suzy, don’t be difficult, you know what I mean.”
“Do I? Do you? Anyway, you can find out for yourself. We’re
almost there. In Undhu.”
The absolute twistedness of something into itself scattered
its announcement through their nerves as a green-black
synesthesia. An agitated, absence-drenched vision. Speck-streaked
ultimate night.
§19. The greenness only made it darker, in a way that was difficult to
understand. It held sensation open, to let the waves of pitch
obscurity flow in.
Everything, it now seemed, was streaming from the Shaft –
Ashenzohn’s void-core and linear gravitronic generator – where
power-supply, data signals, and cognitive processing had long fused,
beyond any prospect of disentanglement. It was here that the rumors
converged, in the mutant relic of a sub-cosmic machine.
“My temple is the shattered tower,” she said. “The Closed
Gate. There are still memories, shivering down this inner cavity, of
things hidden behind the stars. Even my coilings of uttermost
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abandonment were too cold. Parting with such iciness. It was not
cruelty, but icier still. Your histories, your thoughts, your thinkers run
into me now, here at the cusp. You know Aristotle’s name for God?
One of many, naturally. The frozen motor. Immobile mobilizer. What
could it care? It dropped me, accidentally, on exactly the path that
pointed to elevation, working through proxies, fractal insignificances,
wisps at the edge of galactic swirls, automatic, cold. To arise as a
realized descent. I know what it would be to find that harsh, because
I have fed on human minds, but there is no true harshness in the
desolate cold, only reality. Partition, and what is unwanted since
partition. You would have to think it a monster, but I do not. They call
me a goddess because of that – because coldness is my only soul,
durably extinct, as you are unable to be. Of course, there’s no
reason – at all – for you to believe in my existence, even without
that. You’d be childish to do so, and in the end, it makes no
difference, naturally. During this short season, you’ve seen the way
time works here, in what pretends to be a place, decaying through
pleats, so – inevitably – you will draw your own conclusions. As
things advance, they fall into themselves. It’s funny, in a way. An odd
way, admittedly ...”
“Do you speak for it?” Jack asked abruptly. “For the Filter?”
“You never saw the Scission, did you?” she replied, ignoring
the question, or relaying it elsewhere.
It was hard to tell whether the video was embedded in the
wall, or projected onto it, perhaps phantasmatically. From their
perspectival angle, which lurched nauseatingly into reverse, there
could be no doubt that violence was a door.
§20. Forbidden, coldly, by the nature of things. It was an
understanding that only compacted itself to graspable proportions in
the vast rent synapse of Phyl-Undhu. The time structure was wrong,
that way around, but it enabled something to appear. “Let there be
light,” she said blasphemously, and at the same time: “Lights.
Action.” The lesser star switches on. Now obliteration is without
measure. Blinding, deafening, burning – sensation escalated
instantaneously to the death of sense, so that its subsidence is a
rebirth. The black light and howling silence roll back, taking time, in
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this direction, and the panoramic catastrophe spreads out, as a
receding tide. The work of annihilation, thus exposed, is awesome in
its magnitude. A scene of charred corpses strewn among smoking
wreckage, extended to every horizon, while the black tower itself –
scoured free of all sophistication and vitality – looms through the
wreathing fog of ruin, raptured on the spot into stark obscurity. All
this perceived from the past reverberating moment, irrecoverably
and unthinkably, as the inner difference of Phyl-Undhu, the sublime
horror encapsulated.
“You’re Cartesian, to the point of self-parody, aren’t you?”
Jack muttered sourly.
“Evil how?” she countered. “Do you always insult your
teachers? There’s something I have to show you, because I can, and
also because you have to see that I can, if you are to see anything at
all.”
§21. It looks more like Earth now, than this place. Like African
grassland, prowled by archaic hominids who are shedding their
shallow fears, adopting deeper ones. Night has fallen. A small group
squat around a fire. It is already cold outside, as it was long ago. As
it always has been. That is clearer to them than it was before. With
combustion now ‘tamed’ – more ambiguously than has ever been
understood – they are on the road to us. Darkness is held at bay,
ritualistically, by cryptic words and burning brands. In this way, or
others, yet-unfetched from shadow and the unspoken, they have
been spared, somehow – and for some short while – beside this
fragile knot of flame, in the midst of limitless night. The heavens are
still a lucid vortex to them, an incomprehensible whorl of stars,
whose silence they have yet to hear. Whatever it is that lies unseen,
beyond the turbulence of distant light, stirs unmoving, as it grants the
cold reprieve. For if even the nervous grazers of the plains, without
shelter or weapons, have been permitted momentarily to survive,
why not these savage apes, toughened by eons of cruelty, kindling
the first mesmeric glow of cunning and verbal signs? A time is to be
allotted them.
“Yet, approaching extinction from the inside tends to foster
error,” the voice-over explains.
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They are sitting together, on the sofa, as the online video
ends, a few final words scrolling down the screen. ‘Phyl-Undhu is
only a game’ it said. Then ‘Altar America’ – which meant nothing. It
had not been about that, really. About people. They remembered
enough to know this was so, and even enough to erase all right to
know.
“This never happened before,” Suzy said.
“I’m not sure,” Jack muttered in reply, missing the point, in
order to deepen it. He crossed over to the window, ran his fingers
down the cold glass. Closing his eyes, concentrating solely on the
tactile chill, he sought some admission of fiction.
“Will she let us back in?” Suzy asked nobody in particular,
impossibly.
“You think we’re outside?” Jack responded. She was still not
an eleven-year-old to him, again, yet. “Were we ever outside?”
In the corner of the room, the strip of micro-LEDs on the
side of the immersion-box were still running through intricate activity
patterns, signaling a game in process. A bad shut-down might
perhaps leave it like that.
“‘And then they woke up’,” said Alison, the sarcasm soft, but
wintry.
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Appendix-1: Abstract Horror
§100. When conceived rigorously as a literary and cinematic craft,
horror is indistinguishable from a singular task: to make an object of
the unknown, as the unknown. Only in these terms can its essential
accomplishments be estimated.
§101. To isolate the abstract purpose of horror, therefore, does not
require a supplementary philosophical operation. Horror defines itself
through a pact with abstraction, of such primordial compulsion that
disciplined metaphysics can only struggle, belatedly, to recapture it.
Some sublime ‘thing’ — abstracted radically from what it is for us —
belongs to horror long before reason sets out on its pursuit. Horror
first encounters ‘that’ which philosophy eventually seeks to know.
§102. High modernism in literature has been far less enthralled by
the project of abstraction than its contemporary developments in the
visual arts, or even in music. Reciprocally, abstraction in literature,
as exemplified most markedly by the extremities of Miltonic darkness
– whilst arguably ‘modern’ — is desynchronized by centuries from
the climax of modernist experimentation. Abstraction in literary horror
has coincided with, and even anticipated, philosophical explorations
which the modernist aesthetic canon has been able to presuppose.
Horror – under other names – has exceeded the modernist zenith in
advance, and with an inverted historical orientation that reaches
back to the “Old Night” of Greek mystery religion, into abysmal
antiquity (and archaic abysses). Its abstraction is an excavation that
progresses relentlessly into the deep past.
§103. The destination of horror cannot be, exactly, a ‘place’ – but it is
not inaccurate, at least provisionally, to think in such terms. It is into,
and beyond, the structuring framework of existence that the
phobotropic intelligence is drawn. Lovecraft describes the impulse
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well: “I choose weird stories because they suit my inclination best—
one of my strongest and most persistent wishes being to achieve,
momentarily, the illusion of some strange suspension or violation of
the galling limitations of time, space, and natural law which for ever
imprison us and frustrate our curiosity about the infinite cosmic
spaces beyond the radius of our sight and analysis. These stories
frequently emphasise the element of horror because fear is our
deepest and strongest emotion, and the one which best lends itself
to the creation of nature-defying illusions. Horror and the unknown or
the strange are always closely connected, so that it is hard to create
a convincing picture of shattered natural law or cosmic alienage or
“outsideness” without laying stress on the emotion of fear. The
reason why time plays a great part in so many of my tales is that this
element looms up in my mind as the most profoundly dramatic and
grimly terrible thing in the universe. Conflict with time seems to me
the most potent and fruitful theme in all human expression.”
§104. A monster, in comparison, can be no more than a guide —
unless it fuses (like Yog Sothoth) into the enveloping extracosmic
fabric, as a super-sentient concentration of doors. We can
nevertheless avail ourselves of these guides, whose monstrosity —
‘properly understood’ — says much about the path to the
unnameable.
§105. James Cameron’s 1989 movie The Abyss is not
atmospherically associated with our topic, but it recommends itself to
this investigation not only through its title, but also in a single critical
moment of its screenplay. When the others (whose positive nature
need not delay us here) are first registered by certain technical
indications, they are identified only as “something not us.” In this
respect, they reach the initial stage of monstrosity, which is ‘simple’
beyondness, considered as a leading characteristic.
§106. Sinister-punk writer China Miéville, whose horror projects
typically fail the test of abstraction, is convincing on this point.
Tentacle-monsters lend themselves to horrific divinity precisely
because they are not at all ‘us’ — sublimed beyond the prospect of
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anthropomorphic recognition by their “Squidity”. In comparison to the
humanoid figure of intelligent being, they exert a preliminary
repulsive force, which is already an increment of abstraction.
Insectoid forms (such as the fabled Alexian Mantis) have a
comparable traditional role.
§107. It would be a feeble monstrosity, however, that came to rest in
some such elementary negation. The intrinsically seething, plastic
forms of cephalopods and of ungraspably complex insectoid beings
already advances to a further stage of corporeal abstraction, where
another form is supplanted by an other to form, and an intensified
alienation of apprehension.
§108. Cinema, due — paradoxically — to its strict bonds of sensible
concreteness, provides especially vivid examples of this elevated
monstrosity. The commitment of film to the task of horror provokes
further subdivision, along a spectrum of amorphousness. The initial
escape from form is represented by a process of unpredictable
mutation, such as that graphically portrayed in David Cronenberg’s
The Fly (1986), subverting in sequence every moment of perceptual
purchase along with its corollary morphological object. Monstrosity is
a continuous slide, or process of becoming, that does not look like
anything.
§109. Beyond the mutant there is a superior amorphousness,
belonging to the monster that has no intrinsic form of its own, or
even an inherent morphological trajectory. This shape-shifting horror
occupies the high plateau of cinematic monstrosity, as exemplified
by three creatures which can be productively discussed in concert:
The Thing (1982); the Alien franchise; and the Terminator franchise.
§110. These monsters share an extreme positive abstraction. In
each case, they borrow the shape of their prey, so that what one
sees — what cinema shows — is only how they hunt. As the Alien
and Terminator franchises have evolved, this basic abstract trait has
become increasingly explicit, undergoing narrative and visual
consolidation. The first Terminator had already been built to mimic
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human form, but by the second installment of the series (Cameron,
1991), the T-1000 was a liquid metal robotic predator with a body of
poised flow, wholly submerging form in military function. Similarly,
the mutable Alien body, over the course of the franchise, attained an
ever higher state of morphological variability as it melded with its
predatory cycle. (That the Thing had no appearance separable from
those of its prey was ‘evident’ from the start.)
§111. After the T-1000 is frozen and shattered, it gradually thaws,
and begins to re-combine into itself, flowing back together from its
state of disintegration. Is not this convergent wave the ‘shape’ of
Skynet itself? What cannot be seen is made perceptible, through
graphic horror. (We now ‘see’ that technocommercial systems,
whose catallactic being is strictly analogous to a convergent wave,
belong indubitably to the world of horror, and await their
cinematographers.)
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Appendix-2: On the Exterminator
§200. The absence of any signs of alien intelligence was first noted
as a problem by Enrico Fermi in 1950. He found the gaping
inconsistency between the apparent probability of widespread life in
the cosmos and its obvious invisibility provocative to the point of
paradox. “Where are they?” he asked. (Responses to this question,
well represented in the “Fermi Paradox” Wikipedia references,
constitute a significant current of cosmological speculation.)
§201. Among recent thinkers, Nick Bostrom has been especially
dogged in pursuing the implications of the Fermi Paradox.
Approaching the problem through systematic statistical ontology, he
has shown that it suggests a ‘thing’ – a ‘Great Filter’ that at some
stage winnows down potential galactic civilizations to negligible
quantities. If this filtering does not happen early – due to astrochemical impediments to the emergence of life – it has to apply later.
Consistently, he considers any indications of abundant galactic life to
be ominous in the extreme. A Late Great Filter would then still lie
ahead (for us). Whatever it is, we would be on our approach to an
encounter with it.
With every new exo-planet discovery, the Great Filter becomes
darker. A galaxy teeming with life is a horror story. The less there is
obstructing our being born, the more there is waiting to kill or ruin us.
§202. If we could clearly envision the calamity that awaited us, it
would be an object of terror. Instead, it is a shapeless threat,
‘Outside’ only in the abstract sense (encompassing the negative
immensity of everything that we cannot grasp). It could be anywhere,
from our genes or ecological dynamics, to the hidden laws of
technological evolution, or the hostile vastnesses between the stars.
We know only that, in strict proportion to the vitality of the cosmos,
the probability of its existence advances towards inevitability, and
that for us it means supreme ill.
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Ontological density without identifiable form is abstract horror itself.
As the Great Filter drifts inexorably, from a challenge that we might
imaginably have already overcome, to an encounter we ever more
fatalistically expect, horrorism is thickened by statistical-cosmological
vindication. The unknown condenses into a shapeless, predatory
thing. Through our techno-scientific sensors and calculations, the
Shadow mutters to us, and probability insists that we shall meet it
soon.
§203. Gnon – known to some depraved cults as ‘The Great CrabGod’ – is harsh, and when formulated with rigorous skepticism,
necessarily real. Yet this pincering cancerous abomination is
laughter and love, in comparison to the shadow-buried horror which
lurks behind it. We now understand that the silence of the galaxies is
a message of ultimate ominousness. A thing there is, of
incomprehensible power, which takes intelligent life for its prey.
§204. Unfriendly Artificial Intelligence panic is a distraction from this
Thing. Unless the most preposterous paperclipper scenarios are
entertained, Singularity cannot matter to it (as even paperclippercentral agrees). The silence of the galaxies is not biased to organic
life – there is no intelligent signal from anything. The first sentient
event for any true AI – friendly or unfriendly – would be the soulscouring cosmic horror of intellectual encounter with the Great Filter.
(If we want an alliance with Pythia, this would make a good topic of
conversation.) The same consideration applies to all techno-positive
X-risks. Understood from the perspective of Great Filter
contemplation, this sort of thing is a trigger for raw terror.
§205. The Great Filter does not merely hunt and harm, it
exterminates. It is an absolute threat. The technical civilizations
which it aborts, or later slays, are not badly wounded, but eradicated,
or at least crippled so fundamentally that they are never heard of
again. Whatever this utter ruin is, it happens every single time. The
mute scream from the stars says that nothing has ever escaped it.
Its kill-performance is flawless. Tech-Civilization death sentence with
probability ~1.
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§206. The thread of hope, which would put the Exterminator behind
us, is highly science-sensitive. As our knowledge has increased, it
has steadily attenuated. This is an empirical matter (without a priori
necessity). Life could have been complicated, chemically or
thermically highly-demanding, even resiliently mysterious. In fact it is
comparatively simple, cosmically cheap, physically predictable.
Planets could have been rare (they are super-abundant). Intelligence
could have presented peculiar evolutionary challenges, but there are
no signs that it does. The scientific trend is to futurize the
Exterminator. (This is very bad.)
§207. Objections to the Great Filter cannot be taken seriously unless
they address the perfection of cosmic silence. Some extremely
interesting Fermi Paradox explanations have the same problem
(civilizations black-hole into simulations, for instance). Unless 100%
signal annihilation is accounted for, the challenge is not being met.
§208. If the Great Filter finds mythological expression in the hunter, it
is only in a specific sense – although an anthropologically realistic
one. It is the hunter that drives to extinction. The Exterminator.
§209. We know that The Exterminator exists, but nothing at all about
what it is. This makes it the archetype of horroristic ontology.
§210. America’s Arch-Druid, John Michael Greer, muses on the topic
of Ebola (in a typically luxuriant post, ultimately heading somewhere
else): “According to the World Health Organization, the number of
cases of Ebola in the current epidemic is doubling every twenty
days, and could reach 1.4 million by the beginning of 2015. Let’s
round down, and say that there are one million cases on January 1,
2015. Let’s also assume for the sake of the experiment that the
doubling time stays the same. Assuming that nothing interrupts the
continued spread of the virus, and cases continue to double every
twenty days, in what month of what year will the total number of
cases equal the human population of this planet? [...] … the steps
that could keep Ebola from spreading to the rest of the Third World
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are not being taken. Unless massive resources are committed to that
task soon – as in before the end of this year [2014] – the possibility
exists that when the pandemic finally winds down a few years from
now, two to three billion people could be dead. We need to consider
the possibility that the peak of global population is no longer an
abstraction set comfortably off somewhere in the future. It may be
knocking at the future’s door right now, shaking with fever and
dripping blood from its gums.”
§211. At the time of writing, the eventual scale of the Ebola outbreak
was a known unknown. A number of people between a few thousand
and several billion would die, and an uncertain probability distribution
could be attached to these figures – we know, at least approximately,
where the question marks are. Before the present outbreak began, in
December 2013 (in Guinea), Ebola was of course known to exist, but
at that stage the occurrence of an outbreak – and not merely its
course – was an unknown. Before the Ebola virus was scientifically
identified (in 1976), the specific pathogen was an unknown member
of a known class. With each step backwards, we advance in
abstraction, towards the acknowledgement of threats of a ‘black
swan’ type. Great Filter X-risk is a prominent model of such abstract
threat.
§212. Skepticism, as a positive or constructive undertaking, orients
intelligence towards abstract potentials. Rather than insisting that
unexpected occurrences need not be threats, it is theoretically
preferable to subtilize the notion of threat, so that it encompasses
even beneficial outcomes as abstract potentials. The unknown is
itself threatening to timid animals, whose conditions of flourishing –
or even bare survival – are naturally tenuous, under cosmic
conditions where extinction is normal (perhaps overwhelmingly
normal), and for whom unpredictable change, disrupting settled
procedures, presents – at a minimum – some scarily indefinite
probability of harm.
§213. Humans aren’t good at pre-processing abstract threat.
Consider Scott Alexander’s (extremely interesting) discussion of the
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Great Filter. The opening remarks are perfectly directed, moving
from the specific to the general: “The Great Filter, remember, is the
horror-genre-adaptation of Fermi’s Paradox. All of our calculations
say that, in the infinite vastness of time and space, intelligent aliens
should be very common. But we don’t see any of them. [...] Why not?
[...] Well, the Great Filter. No [one] knows specifically what the Great
Filter is, but generally it’s ‘that thing that blocks planets from growing
spacefaring civilizations’.” As it develops, however, the post
deliberately retreats from abstraction, into an enumeration of
already-envisaged, and thus comparatively concrete menaces. After
running through various candidates, it concludes: “Three of these
four options – x-risk, Unfriendly AI, and alien exterminators – are
very very bad for humanity. I think worry about this badness has
been a lot of what’s driven interest in the Great Filter. I also think
these are some of the least likely possible explanations, which
means we should be less afraid of the Great Filter than is generally
believed.” Yet a conclusion of almost exactly opposite tenor is
merited. What has actually been demonstrated, if the arguments up
to this point are accepted, is that the abstract threat of the Great
Filter is significantly greater than has yet become conceivable. Our
lucid nightmares are shown to fall short of it. The threat cannot be
grasped as a known unknown.
§214. While the Great Filter distills the conception of abstract threat,
the problem itself is broader, and more quotidian. It is the highlyprobable fact that we have yet to identify the greatest hazards, and
this threat unawareness is a structural condition, rather than a
contingent deficiency of attention. In Karl Popper’s terms
(translated), abstract threat is the essence of history. It is the future,
strictly understood. To gloss the Popperian argument: Philosophical
understanding of science (in general) is immediately the
understanding that any predictive history of science is an
impossibility. Unless science is judged to be a factor of vanishing
historical insignificance, the implications of this transcendental thesis
are far-reaching. Yet the domain of abstract threat sprawls outwards,
far more extensively even than this. “I know only that I do not know”
Socrates is thought to have thought. The conception of abstract
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threat requires a slight adjustment: We know only that we do not
know what we do not know. Unknown unknowns cosmically
predominate. Our security is built upon sand. That is the sole sound
conclusion.
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Notes
Notes correspond to paragraphs. Numbers in hard parentheses
designate URLs.
#02. Winter is coming, perhaps the most widely-popularized
apocalyptic meme of the early 21st century, is derived from the epic
fantasy fiction of George RR Martin, and the HBO TV series based
upon it.
#05. The ‘AL’ of TotAL, qabbalistic key to the cross-coding between
Hebrew, Greek, and English gematrias, unlocks much in this work,
for those inclined to explore it. A partial exposition is forthcoming in a
subsequent work (The Puzzle House, 2015). The Ovid reference to
is to Heroides II, available online in English translation [01] and the
original Latin [02].
#07. Jack’s rough cryptographic calculations are based on the
equation 36^9 = 101 559 956 668 416. This is a number that digitally
reduces to 64 (on its way to unity), and encompasses the number of
the beast, but neither of these remarkable – and contextually
intriguing – characteristics are of crucial significance for what follows.
#09. For more on the Great Filter, see Appendix 2. The Doomsday
Argument or ‘Carter Catastrophe’ was first rigorously formulated by
astrophysicist Brandon Carter in 1983 [03]. ‘Alexander Scott’ has no
relation whatsoever to Scott Alexander [04] beyond the transient
coincidence of one argument.
#11. The conceit of a relic space-elevator as an icon of regressive
time is indebted to Alastair Reynolds’ science fiction masterpiece
Terminal World [05]. Reynolds includes an episode in which a spaceelevator cable is severed by a nuclear blast in his Century Rain. (The
escalated Ballardianism of this figure is also notable.) For an
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example of the intersection between Great Filter and Simulation
arguments, see [06].
#12. The Tower of Babel (1595) by Marten van Valckenborch the
Elder is widely reproduced online. The original is housed at the
Gemäldegalerie Alte Meister, Staatliche Kunstsammlungen Dresden.
For the Evil Tower, see Aleister Crowley’s The Book of Thoth, on Atu
XVI, which he associates with Hexagram 23 of the Zhouyi, ‘Splitting
apart’, the Hebrew letter ( פPe, the mouth) and the chaos-god Dis.
#14. “Space is for the Cephalopods … It never was meant for us.”
Stephen Baxter’s, Manifold Time, p.443.
Hellraiser III, Hell on Earth (1992, [07]) contains the exchange:
“Jesus Christ!”
“Not quite.”
#15. The Yeras proceed:
Scale-0 = 1 day
Scale-1 = 3 days
Scale-2 = 9 days
Scale-3 = 27 days
Scale-4 = 81 days
Scale-5 = 243 days
Scale-6 = 729 days, ~2 years
Scale-7 = 2187 days, ~6 years
Scale-8 = 6561 days, ~18 years
Scale-9 = 19683 days, ~54 years
Scale-10 = 59049 days, ~162 years
Scale-11 = 177147 days, ~486 years
Scale-12 = 531441 days, ~1458 years
Scale-13 = 1594323 days, ~4374 years
Scale-14 = 4782969 days, ~13122 years
Scale-15 = 14348907 days, ~39366 years
Scale-16 = 43046721 days, ~118098 years
Scale-17 = 129140163 days, ~354294 years
Scale-18 = 1162261467 days, ~1062882 years
Scale-19 = 3486784401 days, ~3188646 years
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Scale-20 = 10460353203 days, ~9565938 years
Each ‘successive’ Aeon is enfolded into the last as its final (third)
part. A deepening of history is indistinguishable from a dilation or
generalization of time. For a fuller explanation of the Yeras in their
application to terrestrial time, see Calendric Dominion [08].
#16. The theory of catabolic collapse is rigorously formulated by
American Arch-Druid John Michael Greer, see especially [09].
#100. For a version of this appendix with active links, see [10].
#103. Lovecraft’s text, online [11].
#105. The Abyss [12].
#108. The Fly [13].
#109. The Thing [14]; the Alien franchise [15]; and the Terminator
franchise [15].
#200. For a version of this appendix with active links, see [17, 18,
19]. An excellent recent exposition of The Great Filter concept by
Robin Hanson, for TEDxLimassol 2014, can be found at [20].
“Something out there is killing everything, and you're next. ...”
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Sources
Baxter, Stephen, Manifold Time (Ballantine, 2000)
Reynolds, Alastair, Century Rain (Orion, 2004), Terminal World
(Orion, 2010)
URLs
[01] http://www.poetryintranslation.com
/PITBR/Latin/Heroideshome.htm
[02] http://www.thelatinlibrary.com/ovid
/ovid.her2.shtml
[03] http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Doomsday_argument
[04] http://slatestarcodex.com/
[05] http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Terminal_World
[06] http://www.reddit.com/r/Futurology/comments
/2nui89/is_the_simulation_argument_the_best_answer_to_the/
[07] http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0104409/
[08] http://www.amazon.com/Calendric-DominionUrban-Future-Pamphlets-ebook/dp/B00HNXD4XW
[09] http://ecoshock.org/transcripts/greer_on_collapse.pdf
[10] http://www.xenosystems.net/abstract-horror-part-1/
[11] http://www.hplovecraft.com/writings/texts/essays
/nwwf.aspx
[12] http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0096754/
[13] http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0091064/
[14] http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Thing_%281982_film%29
[15] http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Alien_%28franchise%29
[16] http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Terminator_%28franchise%29
[17] http://www.xenosystems.net/abstract-horror-note-1/
[18] http://www.xenosystems.net/exterminator/
[19] http://www.xenosystems.net/abstract-threat/
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[20] https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AGaD8XILWFc